Livin'
Growing up as kid was all fun and games
As I got older I started to noticed that
We livin in a world
That doesn't make sense
Are we truly here to live or to die
Suffering from anxiety depression Any type of mental health
And it kills
When I was 14 I thought I was the Only one in this world that was Suffering with depression
Thinking god hated me
Thinking if I should end my life With pills
Walking around having suicidal Thoughts
Everyone at school would laugh Because I would stutter
Some were Snakes, some wouldn't even care About the other person
Girls being Called a bitch a hoe a snitch
Like oh she's this and this
Y'all so childish
How would you like it if someone Called your little sis a bitch
You wouldn't like it huh
I don't know why I let all these Things bring me down
Thinking about the past and not Living the present
I could hardly see my future
I no longer want to be like this
Coming from a family that once was Together
Now we're all split apart
Growing up without a father
Shits been hard lately
And mama thinks everything is okay
But I just want to see myself once Again as when I was a kid
Cuz lately I can't see myself in the mirror
Livin in a dark place for so many Years
Seeing a therapist every Friday
But it seems like nothing is changing
My mind keeps running and
No matter how many pills I take
These demons find a way to attack Me
And the more I fight the more they Attack me
I just want to numb this pain and Never feel
I just wanna fly like a bird up above The clouds being free
While the sun Is shining down and
The breeze of the air coming from The West
We livin in a world that doesn't Make sense
(Help)
I scream my lugs out
(Help)
Seeking for help
But ant nobody there
Please somebody help me
But I guess in order to be strong we Gotta go through pain
Going through a shitty day
Feeling like ending it right away
And never coming back
Thinking to ourselves
No one will ever understand so What's the point of living a another Day
Livin to die
But how
If there's people livin in paradise
Fuck
And how many times do we need to Pray to god to save us through our Darkest days
Even when the light is so dim
Far away
I sit in my room in the floor
Putting both my hands on my face
Busting in tears
Screaming
Hitting the wall
Question god
Why me
Why can I just be happy like other People
Does happiness even exist
Or is it just a myth that people keep Saying that it exist
I honestly don't know
Because no matter who or what Comes into my life it ends up Leaving
Leaving me back into my misery
Not having my Emotional stability
And it kills me
Cuz I just want to be me and live life
And never feeling like this
Shit just kills me
Especially when people don't even Know me
But instead they judge me
And I'm just a human being finding Its purpose
While pursuing my Dreams in this cold world that is Heated with hatred and violence
I can't take it any longer
I'm almost on my 20's
And it feels like I have the world on Top of my shoulders besides an Angel and a demon
I can't say I'm happy because I'm not
They said Who did You become
Your not the same as before
Fuck
Did I created a monster through out The years
A monster that doesn't let me be me Or even live life
Where did time go
As I got older I started to noticed that
We livin in a world
That doesn't make sense
Are we truly here to live or to die
Suffering from anxiety depression Any type of mental health
And it kills
When I was 14 I thought I was the Only one in this world that was Suffering with depression
Thinking god hated me
Thinking if I should end my life With pills
Walking around having suicidal Thoughts
Everyone at school would laugh Because I would stutter
Some were Snakes, some wouldn't even care About the other person
Girls being Called a bitch a hoe a snitch
Like oh she's this and this
Y'all so childish
How would you like it if someone Called your little sis a bitch
You wouldn't like it huh
I don't know why I let all these Things bring me down
Thinking about the past and not Living the present
I could hardly see my future
I no longer want to be like this
Coming from a family that once was Together
Now we're all split apart
Growing up without a father
Shits been hard lately
And mama thinks everything is okay
But I just want to see myself once Again as when I was a kid
Cuz lately I can't see myself in the mirror
Livin in a dark place for so many Years
Seeing a therapist every Friday
But it seems like nothing is changing
My mind keeps running and
No matter how many pills I take
These demons find a way to attack Me
And the more I fight the more they Attack me
I just want to numb this pain and Never feel
I just wanna fly like a bird up above The clouds being free
While the sun Is shining down and
The breeze of the air coming from The West
We livin in a world that doesn't Make sense
(Help)
I scream my lugs out
(Help)
Seeking for help
But ant nobody there
Please somebody help me
But I guess in order to be strong we Gotta go through pain
Going through a shitty day
Feeling like ending it right away
And never coming back
Thinking to ourselves
No one will ever understand so What's the point of living a another Day
Livin to die
But how
If there's people livin in paradise
Fuck
And how many times do we need to Pray to god to save us through our Darkest days
Even when the light is so dim
Far away
I sit in my room in the floor
Putting both my hands on my face
Busting in tears
Screaming
Hitting the wall
Question god
Why me
Why can I just be happy like other People
Does happiness even exist
Or is it just a myth that people keep Saying that it exist
I honestly don't know
Because no matter who or what Comes into my life it ends up Leaving
Leaving me back into my misery
Not having my Emotional stability
And it kills me
Cuz I just want to be me and live life
And never feeling like this
Shit just kills me
Especially when people don't even Know me
But instead they judge me
And I'm just a human being finding Its purpose
While pursuing my Dreams in this cold world that is Heated with hatred and violence
I can't take it any longer
I'm almost on my 20's
And it feels like I have the world on Top of my shoulders besides an Angel and a demon
I can't say I'm happy because I'm not
They said Who did You become
Your not the same as before
Fuck
Did I created a monster through out The years
A monster that doesn't let me be me Or even live life
Where did time go
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