Lay Awake

Caught up in my feelings as I lay awake
Gotta make a killin' fore' I fade away
Stressin' all the little things everyday
Finna roll the dice I'mma make a way

(Yeah) Sad world we all seem to be lost in
Running from myself got me feeling exhausted
It's really hard to live when you know you dead inside
They tell me to keep my head up, and focus on better times but
I'm still using this to cope with depression
Quit doing therapy, it wasn't really helping
But no matter what happens I'll never ignore the blessings
Look myself in the eyes, staring at my own reflection (Uh)
Crazy moments like having conversations with Marco
I miss the couple days when we hung out in Toronto
Told me I'mma blossom by the time I'm nineteen
Experience real life, and focus on rhyme schemes
Said he saw his younger self inside of me
Something at the end of the road, there's gotta be (Uh)
It seem like everything is good cuz I'm gaining fans
But I'm too caught up with myself, losing all my fam
People only care about The Medic, and not Ahmed
Appreciate the messages, but I'm more than an artist
They gon' tell me that they love me all up in my comments
But that don't make me happy if I'm really being honest
Talking to the voice inside, wonder if I'll ever fill this void inside (Yeah)
They keep saying that you gon' be fine
Just put your head down and work man, enjoy the ride (Yeah)
Can't sleep, why my ass always paranoid
Hits deep, type of thing that I can't avoid
Wake up in the morning feeling like crap
But I gotta get this bread, we just need it like that (Yeah)
Tryna get my mind right, but my head don't
Tryna keep pushing hard, but my legs won't
Constant reminders, it won't be long
And if you hearing this, you probably why I wrote this song
Always

Caught up in my feelings as I lay awake
Gotta make a killin' fore' I fade away
Stressin' all the little things everyday
Finna roll the dice I'mma make a way