Winter

Tit for tat my battle width got lack of scope so I'm out of it
That grass was green the past was mean at last that means I'm out of it
Spent a year alone trying to figure out my emotions
Cause all of my friends they abandoned me so I said fuck em
I'm learning how to go through my own motions
I've been missing that west coast shit since my mama's history got told and
I learned beneath the surface waters anemones are enemies
They try to hold in one place and face to face will drain you of your energy
So my tendencies need remedy, and there was plenty b, it needs replenishing

Eighteen months in unity, truly be that was unruly and I needed an out
Offered one couple of times but my own mind it seemed to just get tossed round
Faked a miscarriage, believed her anyway so I carried that torch and I burned it out
And I got home after drinking half to death and then I would always just passed out burned out
Weight gained from weight placed that I can't sustain on my own shoulders
A lotta pain from pictures paint, but the old stains they make your world colder
So I moved through every boulder out of necessity so that bitch can't play me
And I realized that suicide was a glue inside so I blew up inside and I saved me

Gotta hit pause, I gotta find rhythm
Gotta make up for what I had lost, got some ideas for the winter
Twenty one and a half now, learning all about my self respect now
So nobody in this fucking hole can scrutinize for how I get round
And honestly the liquor giving vigor, it be in the trash now
Imma graduate once I meditate on my given place and then set out
That old shit was grade school, some puppy love i was in danger
Til non-narcissistically looked in the mirror and became my own savior