Worst Enemy

I was searching for a savior but I found a demon
Kick me out but pull me back when I get to leavin'
Hold on so hard, I forgot my freedom
Now I'm with the one I love but my soul is weepin'
Whoever knew that you could turn into my worst enemy
Shoulda sent a fucking memo 'cause you got the best of me
Over and over, I'm thinking it's over
Pull over the rover 'cause I got a chip on my shoulder

I'm getting colder and colder
I'm a cadaverous misogynist
Disaster will procure a list
That tells us all the lies that built a fragile sad relationship
That lacked the trust, that masked the past
That our connection built a sword without the hilt, a kid without the quilt

I need some questions that can only be answered
By a misdirected feeling that turned us into actors
The fact of the matter is, I am not past her
I pray to the pastor
But what does it matter?
We're all gonna die anyway

Sailing through the sky
On the wings without the plane
How could you say that you were in love when you don't feel the pain?
How can you tell the day was good without the cold rain?
How can you reap the whole reward without the fucking gain?
I think that things don't ever feel the same
I think that it's been messing with my brain
Damn I wish that this was just a game
I think that I'm about to go insane

I been wasting all my time
Now the time watch me
Wrote the script on the flip
Then she flipped it on me
Always doing the best that I can
I'm more than a friend
But I'm like a stranger in my head when it weighs on me

I been wasting all my time
Now the time watch me
Wrote the script on the flip
Then she flipped it on me
Always doing the best that I can
I'm more than a friend
But I'm like a stranger in my head when it weighs on me

Stompin' atop of my heart
Pulling the pieces apart
Keeping a shard
Slittin' my throat wasn't hard when the one that you love doesn't guard
Against the obviously dangerous
Poison lay between your hips
It wasn't love, it wasn't shit
I'm telling every bitter bit of bone in my body
The lies couldn't stop me
I'm blinded by the simple fucking fact that you were all that I wanted
And I'm trying to save it, I need it, I crave it
Regardless of the pain you created
You cracked my soul on the pavement, yeah