Never Wanna

Fighting these inner workings
Confide in these inner workings
Till you have a understanding you won't know your purpose
You'll be moving to a sound that you swear is so profound
But it's slowly dragging you down. But you just noticed now
Do u keep moving, pursing, doing what you know you really shouldn't be doing?
Or do you turn & you twist & discern in the mist, of all
Or do you answer the call? Do you accept where you are?
And continue to fall, now you ask yourself is this who you are?
I didn't come this far, to start over
I know my dream gotta be closer
I can smell the rubber bands & the new leather
I see me in the mink, when it's cold weather
I can hear my voice on the top selling record
I can taste the success and the victory
But I still feel these chains gotta hold on me
That means 4 out of my 5 senses are satisfied
And 5th one I can't trust, because it always lies

I don't never wanna be what you didn't call me to be
I don't even wanna move unless you tell me where to go
I don't even wanna plant unless you tell me where to sow
(Maybe I'll grow)
Cuz I don't never wanna be what you didn't call me to be
I don't even wanna move unless you tell me where to go
I don't even wanna plant unless you tell me where to sow
Cuz I don't never wanna, never wanna, never wanna, never wanna
Leave your presence

But what lies within is the real question, the new topic for discussion
I don't know what entails of my discussion, the way that I've been fussing
The craves that I've been lusting, the way that I been looking to society
Am I the only advocate for sobriety? For some purity, or some sanity
Otherwise it's just pure vanity. Dang
I guess we hide behind the things we afraid to speak
Then when stand behind leaders that don't practice what's preached
I can see the doubt, I can hear the cries, I can taste your fear, I can smell your lies
I feel your soul, when it rather die, when it rather die. when it rather die
I know just what you mean, & I know how you feel, but I'd be lying if I said it is well
It's His will, that we prevail can't do it ourselves, we need your help
Stop thinking I can do it myself
Can I ever get what I feel I need? Can I stop feeling & just allow you to fill my need
Cuz I don't wanna be something that wasn't meant for me
And I'm just tired of wasting my time on something that wasn't meant to be

I don't never wanna be what you didn't call me to be
I don't even wanna move unless you tell me where to go
I don't even wanna plant unless you tell me where to sow
(Maybe I'll grow)
Cuz I don't never wanna be what you didn't call me to be
I don't even wanna move unless you tell me where to go
I don't even wanna plant unless you tell me where to sow
Cuz I don't never wanna, never wanna, never wanna, never wanna
Leave your presence

What am I facing that I'm not embracing like
What got me thinking that my faith is shaking right
Why is it that I choose to move off every word you say
Even though I do that it seems as if I'm going the other way
I don't get it sometimes. I don't feel like moving
I ain't flexing everyday I don't wanna do it
That just got me thinking how bad do I really want it
What are you willing to sacrifice in order to own it?
Gave up my time and some rest, cut off relationships that weren't best
That ain't enough that just standard, He said man
I want your will, Naw, I want your soul
I want those dark places that you'll never expose
Gotta vulnerable in order to grow. It's gon be painful
It's gonna take some time, you gotta go under pressure to be refined
You might feel lonely a season, you might feel hungry a season
But put your Trust in Him I promise you will need it
Even though you you feel defeated, even though you can't see it
Still you just gotta speak it, into existence
This is growing your faith it's what we calling persistence
Now I'm learning how to hear, walking with no fear
Becoming the person whom all along was always there
Some things just can't be taught, they're just lived
I just thank God that our story doesn't have to end here

I don't never wanna be what you didn't call me to be
I don't even wanna move unless you tell me where to go
I don't even wanna plant unless you tell me where to sow
(Maybe I'll grow)
Cuz I don't never wanna be what you didn't call me to be
I don't even wanna move unless you tell me where to go
I don't even wanna plant unless you tell me where to sow
Cuz I don't never wanna, never wanna, never wanna, never wanna
Leave your presence