Counterweight

I feel like I'm walking a thin line,
Balancing thoughts on a zip-tie,
I'd let them fly if the quiet would
finally silence the voice that is inside,
Weighing my words before that I've spoken,
Day of my birth, caught in the motions,
Why do I only feel norm in the eye
of the storm by the roar of the ocean,
Over and over again,
Though we both know where this ends,
It's sobering knowing that coping alone with this stress,
It all falls over the edge,
Have mercy am I blasphemous? So,
Burn me with fire or Cannabis smoke,
I've worked all my life with hands on my throat,
Searching for highs to balance the lows,
I've been spending my days with reckless abandon,
Searching for balance,
I'm drifting away with no counter weight,
I've tried changing my ways, I'm stuck in here stranded,
Searching for balance,
I'm drifting away with no counter weight,
No I've got no counter weight
If it's all in front of me,
Why's it awaken the kind of sensation of falling suddenly,
Like every step could be pulled from under me,
And so it don't all catch up to me,
I move at the speed of light,
Losing my peace of mind,
Pursuing my demons, lucid or dreaming,
Can't keep doing this, truth is a need a vice,
I'm all out of love now,
If abandoned my sanity's struck down,
Started actually giving a fuck 'bout,
Who's catching me when I come down,
I pray that you follow,
So I'm paving away to escape from this lotto,
It's beautiful today, heart breaking tomorrow
I've been spending my days, with reckless abandon,
Searching for balance,
I'm drifting away, with no counter weight,
I've tried changing my ways, I'm stuck in here stranded,
Searching for balance,
I'm drifting away, with no counter weight,
No I've got no counter weight
Don't wanna be here forever,
Take me from this place,
Don't wanna live forever,
Just wanna live today,
Don't wanna be here forever,
Take me from this place,
Don't wanna live forever,
Just wanna live today
I've been spending my days, with reckless abandon,
Searching for balance,
I'm drifting away, with no counter weight,
I've tried changing my ways, I'm stuck in here stranded,
Searching for balance,
I'm drifting away, with no counter weight,
No, I've got no counter weight