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Dear Ceo, I hope you get this message
My name's Will Olenyik, and we never met
I been watching you for years and it can get excessive
We just have so much in common no one coulda guessed it

You don't have a second chance to make a first impression
But I know that what I'm writing should grab your attention
If I'm wrong about anything, you can make corrections
And if you pay attention we can break the tension

We might be the same person I know that's obsessive
I already took the time to make every connection
I'm also an alcoholic with severe depression
Congrats on the 2 years, I know it's impressive

We sobered up on September 2nd
I don't need a mirror to see the reflection
I threw my life away and I needed redemption
It's hard to map it out when we needed direction, you

Helped me out through a crazy time with my ex
I was fresh out of rehab, and in fear of what's coming next
Started smoking cigarettes to cope with all the stress
We smoke the same pack, you prolly think I'm obsessed

You can tell that I study you closely
I've been waiting for the day that you come and approach me
Just to tell you this in person cuz I know that you've been hurtin
You get love from everyone how the fuck are you lonely

God gave you everything you ever wanted but you always ignore the fact that ya blessed homie
Everyone from rehab, either died or relapsed, you are nothing like the rest homie

Every suicidal thought, and all the lies that you forgot, are what you needed to confess homie
Lost weight cuz ya starve, all these cuts on ya arms, I won't stop til ya dead homie

You're fucking nothin don't ever tell me you are somethin
Actin like this good person when you're far from it
Fuck the music shit I'll listen when you stop runnin
I pray to God that when you read this shit you'll start cuttin

When you die I need to know that I'm the cause of it
If I'm pushing any buttons it's the off button, shit
How can you live knowing everything that you give
To this goal that you wanna get is a lie
You were caught bluffin

And knowing everything was make believe
You lost yo fuckin mind and now it's plain to see
Every time you had a bottle you were chasin me
How the fuck are you afraid when you were safe with me?

How can you manipulate yourself
Helpin everybody out, when you been afraid of help
All then secrets that you keep, that you been afraid to tell
I don't even know a time, that you didn't hate yourself

Okay, if you won't answer to me
What the fuck would Brandon say to you if Brandon could speak
Cuz he needed you that night and you couldn't give a reply
So then he took his fucking car and then he ran through a tree

You weren't even at his funeral service
I wish you ended up like him because you would've deserved it
Tell me, how can you live with yourself
Fuck what you did for yourself, look what you did to yourself, wait

I know you found someone you think you deserve
She promised not to leave you and she's keepin her word
You think you're the best she ever had
And do the minimum cuz everybody treated her worse? listen

You can't blame your ex anymore
You can't blame it on the fact that you're depressed anymore
You can't blame it on your post traumatic stress anymore
You can't lie to them and say you'll try your best anymore

After this there won't be shit we have to guess anymore
You can't act like you don't have shit to confess anymore
You can't even lift the weight off of your chest anymore
You're the reason why your friends are always pressing ignore

Did you push em away, or do they know the truth
Did they find it out when jenna was exposing you
When everybody saw your dick and made a joke of you
And if you still don't know why she would do that shit I told her to

I know you can tell, I'm the only reason you don't love yourself
You weren't homeless til the bottle told you something else
I get it, that's the way I always use ciroc
Same abandonment issues the bottle used to block

But you forgot to be honest with us I can't respect it
And I don't give a fuck about your damn perspective
I wrote this shit hopin you'll understand the message
You know that you need to die and you can't prevent

The suicide, what if you did it again
Would you live to tell the story or would this be the end
All the times that you attempted and I know you're feeling tempted
I can tell you wanna risk it again

Do you think if you went missin again
That someone would give a fuck enough to fix it again
You did this to yourself, by yourself
A cry for help won't mean a thing if they don't listen again

I know you say that you got nothin to lose
If I did this shit to you then what the fuck would you do
You told me to run away but I'm not running from you
Cuz every time you fucking cut yourself you're cutting me too

I got the scares to prove it, but we got em covered
From wearing all these hoodies in the hottest summer, tell me
How could anybody say they're proud of you
When you only didn't do what you're about to do

Happy Birthday