Losing My Mind

Babygirl you were my everything
I even thought about a wedding ring
You were my angel and my happiness in every dream
You showed me things in my life that I had never seen
Now I'm staring at my phone, cause it never rings
Everyday's a different fight
And yo I wish that I could die and live a different life
Cause when you had no where to go I let you spend the night

And everytime you couldn't sleep I always held
you tight, I can't believe you took your life!
Crazy 'cause we had a son on the way
And I was tryna bring you close, but you kept runnin' away
Now my heart's so fuin' broken, I feel nothin' but hate

Cause you never gave me nothin', but somethin' to say
And yo I never got to say goodbye
And I apologize for all the times I made you cry
And I've been hittin' up your phone, I know you won't reply
But I've been feelin so alone, I can't even lie
Now I'm drownin' in depression
Fightin' demons
Babygirl you were a blessin', I really mean it
And I just pray to god I'm dreamin', yo I can't believe it
Baby you gave me a reason, I feel so defeated
I would give up everything to have you next to me
I never told you this, but you made me a better me
Even tho we had a son that I'll never see
I should have been there for you, like you were there for me
Babygirl, Rest in Peace

Yea I'm, losin' myself
I'm losin' my mind
People ask me how I feel, and I tell em I'm fine
Hide my pain wit' a smile, keep my feelins inside
I'm depressed yo, I can't

even lie

(Yea) I hate how people change
Its like nothin' can ever feel the same
And yo, I wanna blow my brain so I can't feel the pain
And I those pills for depression, I threw em down the drain

Cause it just gives me a feelin' that I just can't explain
Losin' focus, Ion have nobody else
And yo I'm broken and hopeless and all by myself
And nobody ever listens when I cry for help
A lot of times we lose our minds so we can find ourselves

Have you ever seen yo girl with another guy?
Or wakin' up late night, seein' yo mother cry
Or getting news out the blue that yo cousin died?
If people show their true colors, then I'm color blind
Rub my eyes, hopin' I can see it
Tell me that you love me girl, I'm hopin' that you mean it
If you did, why I'm in yo recently deleted?
Used to be my angel, now you just one of my demons

Another reason, I deal with the pain
Instead of cryin' in the storm, I learned to dance in the rain
I gotta- follow my heart, but I'm takin' my brain
Its been like this from the start, and yo it drives me insane
Plus I hated how wefall apart
I should have known that even shadows leave you in the dark
The only thing you left me with, was a broken heart

My mind is so many places I don't know
where to start. (Don't know where to start)

And yea I'm losin' myself, I'm losin' my mind
People ask me how I feel, and I tell em I'm fine
Hide my pain wit' a smile, keep my feelins inside
I'm depressed yo, I can't even lie. (Can't even lie)