Meltdown

These city lights, they paralyze a chilly night
As I breathe in a clear starry sky
It's 2:00 a.m., with tired eyes, I reflect on my past
The world is moving fast

This scorching pain that I bury inside
Would make more sense if I had a reason to find
The fuel that burns to keep me alive
But if they were nothing but lies, I wouldn't mind

I have a dream where I strangle you with both of my hands
That afternoon light shining bright through my weary mind
And with a smile, I finally snap your paper thin neck
So satisfied, so silent, my tears fill my eyes

Diving in, I'm reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
I wanna melt away all these useless memories into a blue eternity
Giving in, I'm reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
For I want nothing more than to rest eternally
Maybe I'll be doing something right

Alone and stale above my crumbled window pane
I hear footsteps climbing up the stairs
The clouds, they pass and shrivel as they overcast
And flooding here and everywhere
I see the twilight is showering light
The burning sun is crying a ruby red dye
As if I'm languidly melting tonight
And bit by bit, my world slowly just dies

I have a dream where I strangle you with both of my hands
That early spring, curtains fluttering trace a fragrant breeze
And as your words, like the lips spoke from spill out in vain
And foaming out like bubbles, they float from your mouth

Diving in, I'm reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
I wanna melt away all these useless memories into a blue eternity
Giving in, I'm reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
For I want nothing more than to rest eternally
Like those nights when I slept peacefully

A TV host, the second hand is ticking slow in my memory
So faint, I hear it echo, a crowd of voices growing old
Repeating on and on until it swallows me whole
Allegro, agitate
Make the ringing stop before I go insane
Allegro, agitate
Make the ringing stop before I go insane

I had a nightmare where the whole world vanished before my eyes
Wake up alone, consumed by the darkness of the night
And as I reach out, my heartbeat leaps and I cannot breathe
No, I cannot, I can't go on like this no more

Diving in, I'm reaching for the core of a nuclear reactor
I wanna melt away all these useless memories and finally rest in peace tonight
Giving in, I'll leave this world for good
Because I am so very sure
That when the morning comes
The peace of mind I've been hoping for will finally come true

That's where I need to be
My perfect world