Self Medicated
Difficult to understand why I really overdosed
Currently, don't have all the reasons but i'm coming close
Felt so much uncertainty, couldn't get away from it
Demons here eternally, everyday I hated it
I told the doctors that it wasn't out of suicide
Wanted to escape the pain that made me scarred and traumatized
All of the rejection from wanting your attention
I just wanted someone in my life I could connect with
All my imperfections gave me a perception
I had to be perfect every day and every second
I became obsessed with results and achievements
When they weren't possessed I would have some disagreements
I was always worried how the people would perceive me
Look into the mirror just to see if I was breathing
Plenty blemishes and imperfections in my life
They would keep me up at night, it's when I said alright
Mentally I was going insane
Everyday life was a hurricane
Comfort came when I self medicated
Substances would take away the pain
Another reason why is i'm addicted to attention
Craving validation cause I had so many questions
People couldn't answer anxiety's a cancer
Eats away coherence turns your mind to a disaster
Really put a purpose on impressing individuals
Didn't even care that all my methods were so cynical
Wanted the respect of friends in person on the internet
I would try to gain it quick by giving into their demands
Caught up in the bad lands didn't have a comrade
Me myself and I beside my demons it was unplanned
Didn't care what anybody thought at the time
I just needed reconfiguration of my mind
And I needed to evade and run away from everything
I really thought the drugs would give me all the better things
A sense of euphoria, permanent elation
It was temporary I continued medicating went to
Mentally I was going insane
Everyday life was a hurricane
Comfort came when I self medicated
Substances would take away the pain
Now I have the coping mechanisms use em everyday
Talking to my doctors and they're listening to what I say
I don't trust myself with isolation and depression
So I talk to someone and that person is a blessing
Now I have the coping mechanisms use em every night
Taking my Effexors and they really make me feel alright
I don't feel the pressure and the mental pain I used to
Really overcame it all I tightened up the loose screw
Mentally I was going insane
Everyday life was a hurricane
Comfort came when I self medicated
Substances would take away the pain
Currently, don't have all the reasons but i'm coming close
Felt so much uncertainty, couldn't get away from it
Demons here eternally, everyday I hated it
I told the doctors that it wasn't out of suicide
Wanted to escape the pain that made me scarred and traumatized
All of the rejection from wanting your attention
I just wanted someone in my life I could connect with
All my imperfections gave me a perception
I had to be perfect every day and every second
I became obsessed with results and achievements
When they weren't possessed I would have some disagreements
I was always worried how the people would perceive me
Look into the mirror just to see if I was breathing
Plenty blemishes and imperfections in my life
They would keep me up at night, it's when I said alright
Mentally I was going insane
Everyday life was a hurricane
Comfort came when I self medicated
Substances would take away the pain
Another reason why is i'm addicted to attention
Craving validation cause I had so many questions
People couldn't answer anxiety's a cancer
Eats away coherence turns your mind to a disaster
Really put a purpose on impressing individuals
Didn't even care that all my methods were so cynical
Wanted the respect of friends in person on the internet
I would try to gain it quick by giving into their demands
Caught up in the bad lands didn't have a comrade
Me myself and I beside my demons it was unplanned
Didn't care what anybody thought at the time
I just needed reconfiguration of my mind
And I needed to evade and run away from everything
I really thought the drugs would give me all the better things
A sense of euphoria, permanent elation
It was temporary I continued medicating went to
Mentally I was going insane
Everyday life was a hurricane
Comfort came when I self medicated
Substances would take away the pain
Now I have the coping mechanisms use em everyday
Talking to my doctors and they're listening to what I say
I don't trust myself with isolation and depression
So I talk to someone and that person is a blessing
Now I have the coping mechanisms use em every night
Taking my Effexors and they really make me feel alright
I don't feel the pressure and the mental pain I used to
Really overcame it all I tightened up the loose screw
Mentally I was going insane
Everyday life was a hurricane
Comfort came when I self medicated
Substances would take away the pain
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Writer(s): Jake Darus
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