Night Drives

Night drives just to give me peace
Holding on to what's left of me
Grasping for something but its out of reach
Wondering when'd my soul leave
Where did I go
Where did I go
Just know
I'm still searching but gotta go
Rolling with no soul
Still the lost boys back on the road

Lost so much in a year you would think I'm negligent
False bravado starts to sound like false arrogance
Wrote Matinee but still it wasn't the main event
Seeking to be real but find I'm still hiding shit
I can feel the hole in my heart grow
Holding rope in hand saying no more
Before Jack and Alan told me come o'er
Still telling lies protecting who I'm not sure
Not there when they need
Found out bout Daniel's party still missed it
Time's change but I fall into the same habits
Find distance first so I control what happens
Is it my fate or dictated actions
Cutting off my roots losing life connections
People need answers I'm still second guessing
T wants me to come with friends
But
I hear birds sing its a trap in the ends
I know
Cause when you're awake I say everything's great
But
When I take time I see it's all changed

Night drives just to give me peace
Holding on to what's left of me
Grasping for something but its out of reach
Wondering when my soul did leave
Where did I go
Where did I go
Just know
I'm still searching but gotta go
Rolling with no soul
Still the lost boys back on the... road

I leave my heart in pieces
Lets people feel a part
In the end I don't need em
But you're left with a scar
People see me different
I'm more aware than I let you believe
But I'll own all my shit down to every deed
Told her I'm not pure as I may seem
I just keep it sewn together so that you can never see
Mads wants me to meet Jeremy and I feel conflicted
Weird that those seeking closeness make me run for distance
I'm not well adjusted
I'm convinced in the end it turns nothing
Can't ignore the feeling when I know it's coming
Hard feeling close when you can never let them in
They'll leave just can't let them take another piece of me with

Where did I go
Where did I go
Just know
I'm still searching but gotta go
Rolling with no soul
Still the lost boys back on the road

Almost called my ex to try and mark the spot where I lost it
Where'd the worth in relations start proving too costly
When did I lose the person that I used to be
When did I find focus but in turn start losing me
Everything will be ok but to keep it G it wont be Eazy
I find when it's darkest is when its the least deceiving
Need to be honest with myself about how I see things
Not get blinded by the light of how it could be
14 couldn't tell you where my mentals been
21 and my minds ills to family show me draped in sin
Can't let anyone walk where I've been
Knocking at the door can't let em in
Cant let em see me broke cause I tried to bend
This could be the end of chapter or maybe ill just say the end
Gotta lie down as the demons strike again

That Lost Boy but wont get killed by Peter Pan
Life's been blowing me all this shit truth be told I'm not a fan
Working like a fiend addicted to the process
Y'all niggas with the weak shit get an Embid blocking
Already planning meals ain't harvested crops yet
Feasting off niggas better keep praying God will stop me
I'm with the Queens in 606 B
Great Grandma was an OG in NYC
Gotta move similarly
Gotta make it for these lost kids
To show em what there is
May never grow up
May Neverland
Those claiming God
Golden compass shit I'm the God Killa
AG was a blessing disguised when she had me play villain
Killed part of me but I come alive for those feelings
Can't believe this is my competition
Are they willing to sacrifice everything I'm willing
Realization they ain't really foreing
Meaning y'all ain't hit
Y'all switch like Nintendo
Flipped the script here's the memo
Gotta make it for these lost kids
And this lost soul trying to find his