Suddenly

I look back again
Temptation glows
I see you leaving
So blue, so cold
I've been gone from you for too long
Pale hands shaking
We got caught up in chasing
But these things escape
I still see you
Yeah, your face
My dreams prolong
It just won't go
So I'm drinking your memory away
I wish it would just exit from me
Lets move beyond the sting of regret
I'm better than this

(I reach out and you're nowhere near where I'd thought
I realize it was I who was lost all along)

I reach out and you're not there
I lose myself and you don't care anymore now
I feel you drifting further from me
Distant longing
Breathing deeply
Take me away
Break me from this endless cycle
Help me to see there's still hope for me
I wish we could be one again
I'd be dead without my friends
I feel the need to love
But I don't want to be loved

Those long days we spent in preserving ourselves
Talking about things we'll now never tell
The charades we act out in trying to sell
Excitement that's long gone and bringing us down
Perception is clear now that I'm finally out
It's easy to look back and rid all the doubt
I've no reason to hear what departs your mouth