Bipolar Ways

I've been on the grind... I've been on the grind like every day
I feel like there is something that is happening to me
I am bothered by it truly, I've been feelin' so drained
When you're struggling with demons and you're fighting with the pain it's my brain...
And it's keepin' me from sayin', been rappin' like happiness is commonplace, everyday but it aint
About to break down, so much weight, on my plate now, what's my fate can I make it out?
I've been on the grind, I've been on the grind, every single god damn day
Balance hard to find I've been looking for it every single way
I was on a high, I was on a high and now I gotta pay
It's time to hide, it's time to hide from these old bipolar ways...
I don't think I was made like this here I am, living two lives bound to an up and down
Yesterday I guess life was pretending now
Had a high that was bound for an ending now...
My life it took a fall, it took a fall, it took a fall
My life it hit a wall learning to crawl, learning to crawl

I do not care, what you say about this
I know what I'm feeling every day's hit or miss
Could be up in the clouds or down in the rain
The fear of each side of me drives me insane
I do not care, and I'm makin' a fist
Cause I fight for each day each ending's a twist
I feel like my life is no two days the same
Usually happiness ends up in pain

I've been on the grind
I've been on the grind like everyday
Everything I do distracts me from a sudden change
Every time I'm high like I'm acting the other way
Thinkin' I'm a god, and a genius, out my way
Out my way
I am high get out my way
No more sadness
Tryna make a name
Got no shame
When I'm high I got no shame cause I do everything right
Victory is in sight, watch how I play the game
I've been on the grind, I've been on the grind, every single god damn day
Look how hard I've tried, how hard I've tried to live another way
People say I'm fine all in my mind and that I am ok
Tears in my eyes I stabilize with these pills every day...
Keep movin', just get through it, you're just human, keep breathin' now
Keep movin', you're not ruined, you're not losin', this battle now
My life it took a fall it took a fall it took a fall
My life it hit a wall, learning to crawl learning to crawl

I do not care, what you say about this
I know what I'm feeling every day's hit or miss
Could be up in the clouds or down here in the rain
The fear of each side of me drives me insane
I do not care, and I'm makin' a fist
Cause I fight for each day each ending's a twist
I feel like my life is no two days the same
Usually happiness ends up in pain

It's like, any given day I can wake up, and feel like I'm on the top of the world
And the very next day, I can feel like I'm in the depths of hell
How do you explain that? How can you fix that?
Is it real? Is it all in my head? Oh it's real... it's god damn real...