I Won't Ever Be the Same

So, I'll keep trying to find a way
To make sense of this and find resolve
But as long as you're happy, I guess I'll be alright
You just keep moving forward and don't look back to find me
Cuz I'll keep praying, and I'll keep laying my head down at night
And dream of the past
And the future we're not in together we'll go our own ways
I'll go where I have to, and sing what I need to, and tell our story with a different name
Cuz I still want to protect you, though I know I don't have to
So, go on, live your life, you're safe

You're safe with me
You're safe without me

I won't ever be the same

I made my choices
Life lessons I've learned the hard way
I found joy in danger
And made a mess from things I shouldn't say
Thoughts leave my head through my mouth
And I write it off "it's from the heart"
But the heart is wicked, I can't fix it
Only the one who's been here from the start
I'm so sorry I failed in so many ways
And we can't change it
I know you're sorry, you tore me apart
But you can't fix it
So, don't try, don't try, don't try, don't try
I'll be alright, alright, alright, alright

I won't ever be the same
Sometimes life is full of pain
I won't ever be the same
Open my eyes to see what we've gained
I won't ever be the same
So, change my heart and heal the shame
I won't ever be the same
There is beauty in this pain

I won't ever be the same

It's so terrible and amazing
This masterpiece
Of misplaced intentions
And emotions