Rumination

I can feel the cracks in this masquerade
Absorbing to conform, surely I'm going insane
Are these consignments, so defining
I can't live my own ways?
Or is this the only thing cementing my name

I saw the instance, I was going insane
Drifting to the deep, letting conscious slip away
No control of unknown, ignorance is bliss we were told
Weep for yourself, I will not be a construct

No control of unknown, ignorance is bliss we were told
Weep for yourself, I will not be a construct

Composure an endless rehearsal
When your mind is searching for paradigms
Bring all of your debts to the surface
And trust that you will survive this time

Despaired reality renders my thoughts unclear
These vacant faces they all just glare
Seeking the solace here in this affair
Why cant i drown in elation

Paranoid, I'm locked in this bitter state
With nothing void, why do i feel this way

Only one brain controlling the habits, disastrous
Maybe well embrace reactions
Maybe we'll evolve from madness
But sharing is a loaded fragment, relax kid
Overthinking yourself to ransom, abandon
Taming reality just to break from the static

Locked in this bitter state
Why do we feel this way
Maybe well embrace reactions
Maybe we'll evolve from madness

Intoxicated breaks make my delusions real
This inquisition will not avail
There's no foundation here to awaken the idea
Why can't I drown in elation

Paranoid, I'm locked in this bitter state
With nothing void, why do i feel this way

Push these thoughts up the hill
Bottle it all up
Does hiding from these voices
Make you feel alive
Or could you confide
Tell me do you feel alive
Or could you confide