Confession

I got a confession to make
Trading my heart for my head was my greatest mistake
Had to trade the food for my mind with the food in my plate
And I dabbled in things I hope are never retraced
So fuck it I'm clearing the slate

I was moving the weight
And I lied to myself and said it was tithe for the happier days
Losing my faith
While listening to daemons that promise me greatness in hope of escape
The feeling of fear
The smell of a problem
And so I learned to embrace my failure and shame
My second nature blossomed now has a name
And I call it defeat
Stare at my feet while I'm crossing the street
Rolled with the punches for rolling the dice
And I settled with losses to pick at it twice
Got blood in my eyes from staring at me and ignoring the signs
Secrets and lies pulling me further away from the light but I'm already blind
I'm already blind

Just forgive all the hate
Cause I swear if I could I would change all my ways
But there's comfort in pain
So I'd rather you'd join me than go out of my way
But I settled the debt and I left you alone when I needed your help
Through the pressures I felt
There's a cancerous voice in the place of my brain
And I had to refrain from coppin a gat
And painting these walls in red with a stain
Wearing these thorns like a hat
My heart on my sleeve but it must've just fell
Cause the road is bumpy in hell
But it didn't matter when the music would sell

I was paying the bills living alone enclosed in a shell
Fishing for wishes in wells
Cause if I'm living we living
That's how I could tell that living's a blessing
Died and came back just to learn the lesson
Living's a blessing
Even when I turned my only hobby into a profession
Shit living's a blessing