A Mess (MS)

On the corner of my eye
I felt a cloak was arised
I saw an entity arrive
From grey smoke it disguised
Its identity,
It mentally affected me
Dilated my pupils like a new pill of ecstasy
The effect on me was projectedly focused
It was like a trajectory of hypnosis
I noticed a defect, it was possibly psychosis
It was a shapeshifter
An impossible diagnosis
As I got ready for a leap of faith
Something steady deep inside me told me wait
Even tho it hurt
Still gotta chance to take a turn
Gave it a second
Looked back at life and watched it burn
Off of a coffin and under the earth
Toppin' my luck but got dropped at my birth
Poppin' a curse, drop in my worth
Hoping that I get a bit of remorse
Feelin the force, the feeling get worse
When you trynna get ahead in life and make it outta alive
Trynna make it work
I was weak
Stuck in reverse
Took another peak
I saw the entity smirk

Just waiting for the morning
Everything is okay now
It creeped up on me but i'll be okay now
Gave me no warning, the skies are all grey now
I'm sure i'll find a way, yeah i'll be okay now
Just waiting for the morning
Everything is okay
Got no heads up but the skies are all grey
Creeped up on me but i'm sure i'll find a way
Ain't no time to play yeah i'll find a way

So I felt like I need to get a hold of myself
I had to compel
I was overwhelmed and I had to condemn
Planned to attempt As well
I had the intent
But I didn't know what to expect
To what extent or what all of this meant
The entity got close
And my body froze
It was like an alarm had broke
I tried to move my arms but had no feeling in my bones
Vulnerable situation
All these years of feeling comfortable with minimal frustration
Came crashing down to this miserable causation
I had to pick between vanity or an honourable patience
Looked once again the shapeshifter didn't refrain
It seemed as if it was the end
But the face looked familiar
Like an old friend or a family member
Took another look and I was shook

Just waiting for the morning
Everything is okay now
It creeped up on me but i'll be okay now
Gave me no warning, the skies are all grey now
I'm sure i'll find a way, yeah i'll be okay now
Just waiting for the morning
Everything is okay
Got no heads up but the skies are all grey
Creeped up on me but i'm sure i'll find a way
Ain't no time to play yeah i'll find a way

By this time i was already running out patience
I knew what I said but sometimes i say shit
Anyways i was looking for any way
To get out of this mess
The pain in my chest got me feeling like I'll never regress
I'm stuck in this rut
Every time I undo a knot
It kept kicking my butt
I tried to get up but I couldn't
So I stayed seated hopeless and defeated
Patiently waiting for an inspiration
This entity infiltrated my own imagination
I heard a whisper in my ear
It was slurry and it wasn't clear
Made me forget to remember
It told me its going to meet me in December
I never knew my life is gonna be a mess
Until i was left with MS

Just waiting for the morning
Everything is okay now
It creeped up on me but i'll be okay now
Gave me no warning, the skies are all grey now
I'm sure i'll find a way, yeah i'll be okay now
Just waiting for the morning
Everything is okay
Got no heads up but the skies are all grey
Creeped up on me but i'm sure i'll find a way
Ain't no time to play yeah i'll find a way