Somethin Real

They want some real, something to feel
Here go the deal, y'all gotta chill
You all on my neck, you all in my grill
Like this ain't enough
My nigga you suck, go back to the crib
Back to the way that you rap when you struggle so bad
Had a gun to your head on the bridge

But what about you?
How you still ain't changed?
Throwing dirt on my name as soon as I grow
You hate me the most
Wish that I was the same, the same as you are
Down in the dumps
Down on my luck, doubt on myself
Broke as a joke, testing my health

Running thru bottles and dwelling my sorrows
With women around me who fuck me to leave
Crushing these pills doing line after line lace
The joint with the coke while you sippin' codeine
Abusing the people you love 'cause you scared to yourself
And what you might eventually be
You just give up 'cause the failure occurring too much
Let me tell you that's never been me

I hit the bottle with pencils and motival
Visuals the coke of the kid with the stand
I dropped a song and it's the truth
Seems like sometimes you don't care
I keep on going don't worry 'bout
Tainted opinions, the others they ain't there
I keep it real even if It gets different
I spit how I'm living and keep them aware

Know you been trippin, figures
That's why you got me sippin liquor
Change is callin but you hung up
On the come up
You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
And know it's all love

Never been blurry vision
Never been your decision
Change is callin' but you hung up
On the come up
You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
And know it's all love

Yeah, you want something real, 'till I say how I feel
It's not my fault when I pour out my thoughts
It puts you all in the feels
Maybe I'm needing to chill, maybe I'm needing a pill
Maybe I'm needing her still, maybe I'm needing a hill
Maybe I'm depending on love, fuck
Dependency kills

I wondering why I am living? When I was inside of the kitchen
Well I sit down gripping that knife, uh
Wondering, thinking 'bout life, uh
I almost made the most selfish decision
Clenching my neck fuck, I wanted to slit it
All of the pain, all the pain I was feeling
I wanted to cut, but thank God that I didn't

And I realised that my life is bigger than me
Got so many people depending on me
My hidden depression was sickening me
But I didn't end it 'cause this isn't me
Nah, this isn't me
I am stronger than I think, I wear my heart on my sleeve
I'm not afraid of exposure, I show my emotion
So when I am flowing they know that it's me

If they had it there right now I would plummet
I wouldn't peak or ever reach the summit
I would feel defeated, leave here with nothing
I would be drunk sipping' Bourbon and clubbin'
I would be sick, feeling pain in my stomach
I would be following them like a puppet
I would've quit my dreams and never done it

Know you been trippin, figures
That's why you got me sippin liquor
Change is callin' but you hung up
On the come up
You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
And know it's all love

Never been blurry vision
Never been your decision
Change is callin but you hung up
On the come up
You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
And know it's all love