Mind Meld

My mind developed a fungal growth
Paranoia had driven out all else
Focus was pushed way back on the shelf
I had a serious lapse in my mental health
Motivation took an extended vacation
My entire life seemed like nothing but aggravation
My patience lean, my brain burnt toast
I needed help for the psychological dysfunction
Suffering from severe support depravation
I went to a counselor for some brainwave transformation

My consciousness was completely fried
Frantically changing from serene to hysterical screams
I told her all about my dreams
I spilled my guts and cried
She nodded and smiled and took big deep sighs

Driven to the depths of despair
An inner darkness filled the air
Paralysis, mental stagnation, self flagellation
I was living primal fear
I wouldn't answer the phone
But THEY wouldn't leave me alone
Anger, depression, rage, misdirection
There was a gaping morass in my emotional veneer

Friends came over and did an intervention
It was like a helping hands convention

My new shrink said that I was stagnating
In my depression for a reason completely justified
It was a natural emotional season
A reaction to rejection and low self esteem
I was a serious, manically depressed potential suicide!

He asked me how I felt
About the hand that fate had dealt
Hidden games that I was playing
Vague ways of communicating
Using guilt: manipulating
That was why my ego was disintegrating
I would find solutions, resolution to emotional pollution
Clear my mental fog with Internal dialogue

Healthy discourses that realize
The new psychological profile that is me



Credits
Writer(s): Wesley Dildine
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