Lost Dreams

12 AM and my dream is getting lucid
The final stage of illness hope this lyrics therapeutic
Cuz my sins are one too many, dont know why this fellah choose me...
Damn... beggars can't be chosen

Fuck the fame n all...
I just want the paper Dogg...
Like a jobless doctor shii I gat no patience bruh...
This very reason spending minutes with no A&R
Play my music Rosecrans to SA,people pay for art
Don't gat no interest for this business,watch me raise the spark...
Rest in peace Reggie one of many who just fade to black...

Buh I ain't wanna put the sands on him...
The sand of time cant be given when you don't have any...
Monday 18th scar my heart when you past Reggie...
Hip hop gat my soul when we met at the class early...
You was busting rhymes
Like Busta rhymes... way back at the time
Buh I was feeling kinda left behind...
Cuz you would start to rap them girls feeling you at first...
Shitty me could only come up two weeks with a fucking verse...
Fast forward with a couple years
You said you wanna chase the game with a couple years
Be a rapper,sell records share your flaw and fears
Hopefully labels might just sign buh just call it years...
Men what a fucking dream!
Might be far-fetched buh fuck what it seems...
Back then I was dreaming bout the collar dreams
Cuz this music in my nation fucked up to the brim
How you listening to his song n want none of that
Buh you play that brown haired nigga n you call it fact.
I thinking next year I should fuckin buy a German Ruger
Maybe am exaggerating fakers prolly dead with losers...
Am standing at your grave n thinking I just lost a brother to this fucked up system
Am missing the part where you never sleeping
Tryna make the rhyme
Me I couldn't make the time...
These lost dreams my world seems crumbled at the time...
Guess we never know whats time,time keeps timing what is timed...
We can never understand...

Like
Like I've been trying to like Make people understand that
It's not really crazy like
I mean
I've been going through some shit and...
They don't really understand so...
I just vibe with it
And just make them understand that
What they want to understand

So am just thinking for a moment
What if we get everything we ever wanted
What if our dreams in our palms n we hold it...
Do we really really can control it...
What if we truly free n decide our fate in life
What if we make it to heaven without our faith in Christ...
Do we really need to act polite
I think the universe was never ever made with light...
I see the stars glitters shimling when its late at night...
What if God never whisper into Noah's life
Lijah prolly talking to himself or a poltergeist
Thinking everything I want to when I hold the light...
I see the sun,stars moons all of natures might
These dreams am having are turning into prophecies
Dante feeling nostalgic... Am serving niggas prophecies
Wishing everything I wanted then I wanna be...
My Future far ahead
Fate make it odd to see
This journey of my life same shitty path like oddessey
Fake friends at my back dragging daggers as they follow me
Its more efficient I can't live without the luxuries
Am dragging lost souls to the gates of Christians purgatory
Half of them dead buh it's alright i gat God in me...
Maybe his light will shine or open up the door for me
Final minutes my sobriety made me more surreal
And every time I try to mingle... shit I just suck at it...
While niggas go to parties I'll be making music more for me
Generating all the hate n make it love to me
While niggas try to beef I'll be setting out my cutleries
I should tie a noose so I can fucking get a hang of it
My plans coming
Buh the devil put a stamp on it...
Every time I try to move
Keeps me static adding glue...
More stacks I made... harder the pain
I should be martyred invain
While people search for answers
I bottle wisdom in tantras
I followed Jesus in text n all the preachers with pamphlet
All the teachers in symphony
Knowledge speaks n they sing for me...
Part of me will reject society n hypocrisy
I'm tryna get more paper stacks, keep in check my honesty
People telling me i ain't shit but i just want to be
They just looking at me like just some wannabe