Just a Breath

Ray J grew up on the east side only wheels a bike or bus ride
Daddies favorite drink crown royal glass of shots
Ssoon there's 5 pops bodies drop daddy gone and Ray J lost
On how to be a man school teaching he won't be anything
Won't have college plans a hood fail tell kids oh well
If they don't make it get killed lost in street thrills
Friends learn to grip a pistol learns too now official
Rappers he looks up to say if ya mad
Find & shoot get the money get the girls
Get the buicks get the world listens to their teachings
Though they do what they please these kids practice what they preaching
Got no man to lead got no dad to teach so he's growing to be what these rappers say he needs
Forget college forget work gang banging just in first grade already see a brother sprayed
Now he knows pain just a breath away from being in his own grave

Another breath another night another death Mama's cry
Another thrill can't satisfy
In the end Where am I?
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Then I'm gone, then I'm gone

Ray J tried to make it out the hood But the only dudes that do
NBA or selling good good gets paper like the videos beats up haters too
And at night under covers with another lova cause they say sex makes ya a man like no otha
Dropped outta school to be a rapper how he shows his anger
At his mama at his papa so he raps usin the finger hoping
To wrap that finger round a trigga blow to shreds the
Man who never was a father figure blaming this ghost for all the pain not let go
Not havin a family feelin he'll never know and won't show it
In corner store plugged in to music get a pack of cigs dude rushes in
Screaming for money the clerk won't give him before Ray J can stop it a shot sounds
Jumps they fall to the ground gets the gun pulls back the mask now its pointed at the man
Cause the shooter's Ray J's dad

Another breath another night another death Mama's cry
Another thrill can't satisfy
In the end Where am I?
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Then I'm gone, then I'm gone

Could've shot him there but he only stared could've stopped the tears more fall every year
Daddy been in for ten since the incident asks jimmy to visit finally does can't live with it
So much pain to let go so many things dad doesn't know left this brokenness at home
Had to be the man alone now face to face with the ghost who he had needed most
His daddy leans in close says what hadn't been heard before
I'm sorry Ray J then tears start streaming
Ray lets out what he's feelin years alone with dad leavin trying to find life's meaning
For all he had been believing Ray J's yelling chest heaving
Barely breathing from the pain never ceasing
Tears streaming too freedoms coming through walls cracking loose healin takes time to move
A wife a couple kids dads free again not from prison but life he was living
Not just a breathe but forever breathing

Another breath another night another death Mama's cry
Another thrill can't satisfy
In the end Where am I?
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Then I'm gone, then I'm gone
Another breath another night another death Mama's cry
Another thrill can't satisfy
In the end Where am I?
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Just a breath then I'm gone
Then I'm gone, then I'm gone