Da Healing

You know seh mi thank you for being you yu know
But that don't excuse
All of the abuse
Or the lack of love n nurturing
Ah nuff life mi live tho
Now mi ah see the world
Through eyes weh nuh adolescent
Learned many lessons
Through my abilities to
Co create and make mistakes
I count my blessings
Studied your essence
As parents
Everyone dem ah learn pon the job
Repeating or correcting
Generations of mistreatment
I feel your pains coz I received dem
Physically mental emotionally
You were bleeding
Looking back I fully overstand
The reasons i was teefin
Attention seeking
Inevitably led to beatings
But if dem ting happened
Inna dem time ya
Them crimes woulda warrant
Some double figure sentences
Have unu inna segregation
Ah pray fi repentance yes
Instead daily occurrence teach
Emotional reclusiveness
Protect by the shell of cancerian like me
Kept my feelings under roof inna this
It took me roughly 30 years
To realize and release the ghosts
Now when I see something touching
I well up and feel emosh
Now my heart feels free
And sensitivity responds like how it's supposed to
I kinda like it but mi don't too
Suh now mi afi reprogram the programs
Weh program mi from a yout
To hold my tears and feelings
And never let them show
Like when I found my granmada cold
Rigamortis head to toe
I couldn't cry like all the others
Had to force it on my own
Mi did know seh if I didn't let it out
My actions dem woulda explode
So now mi set her voice and pictures on repeat
Until I broke
Then mi afi channel the energy
Produced her memory
And write a song
Voice it mixed the levels and finish bout 11 past one
Then simply title it
Granmadas love