Heavy is the Heart (feat. Phillip Cap)

I grew up in the Gateways, never really knew a bad day
Mom and Dad, they kept all the struggles locked deep away
Hidden from the eyes of an innocent child
When all you know is blank walls, imagination runs wild
Still I never really wanted for nothing
And the shit they withheld; it was all to teach something
A lesson on work or achieving your goals
Or going without so you can survive the tough roads
But the thing I remember is they were barely around
They left me out in Paramus, at my grandparents' house
Remember when I locked Pop up in the bedroom with rope
Or the Five-hour road trip for the Fairy Tales of Hope
I beat the shit out of that table cause they let me have a hammer
Moving the couch cushions and jumping off the second banister
Time spent on that dead-end that's my storybook childhood
So when I think back to that house on Maplewood

I apologize to everyone
Can't make up for all the evil's I've done
This is my, my confession of all of my sins
I'm just a product, I'm just a product of the world we live in

Didn't even see it until it became too late
A petulant little prick so easy to instigate
And set it all ablaze there's something about the flame
To watch the world burn, he gets off on the games
That's the type of attitude I had when I was younger
I needed to feel the pain, see the hurt, know the suffer
Cause that's the only time I could ever feel alive
Fighting with this depression kept me numb to my life
But instead of reflection, I embraced the image
Became the black sheep and ran you all to the limit
Like Grandma's accounts when I stole all her numbers
And cleaned that shit out in the course of a summer
I almost burned down the house, the fire got out of hand
You put my head through a wall for being less of a man
Still you supported me till I get my shit all in order
And through it all proved blood is thicker than that water

I apologize to everyone
Can't make up for all the evil's I've done
This is my, my confession of all of my sins
I'm just a product, I'm just a product of the world we live in

I've got kin that I spit on and pushed to the floor
They've only offered support, still I showed'em the door
And just like before, I'm trying to restore
Even the score with all those I ignored
We all can admit it, I'm a pretty shitty person
So introverted, I've become a bigger burden
Wish that it's different, but maybe I could change something
But I know better than most, without action these words mean nothing

I apologize to everyone
Can't make up for all the evil's I've done
This is my, my confession of all of my sins
I'm just a product, I'm just a product of the world we live in