Do I Exist

If my body turn lifeless, would the people arise
Or would I just be another dead body that dies
In the words of the ancient, now soulless as well
I leave this earth, now, to transcend to hell

I can no longer take it, I must part ways
In this world of anger, I can no longer stay
To all the family and friends that I love
Don't worry or fret, I'll always be watching from above
I might not be present in a physical sense
But I promise I'll always be watching from over the fence
Goodbye, farewell. I part ways today
I leave my body here so it can rot and decay
The skies of this world are getting so so gray
I'm so far from my mind, I feel so astrayed
Someone please put me out in the fucking ashtray
I can't convey these lyrics, I can no longer stay
I can't deal with the daily pain of every fucking day
I'm so stuck, i feel like I've been sprayed with hair spray

This weed in my airways, these drugs are a gateway
I can't hear what they say, I crash on the freeway
What is the delay, I gave her a boquet
She said so what, okay, this is so cliche
I'm dead on the workday, I'm high on the weekend
I'm drowing in the deepend. these drugs that I depend on

I keep popping all these prescriptions
Don't listen to my doctor
I think that I should stop it
I'm never gonna stop it
Yeah, never gonna stop it
I'm stuck up in a locket
And I just can't unlock it
Stuck up in a locket
Just can't unlock it

I'm up in the cockpit of the rocket
Going so fast, I just can't stop it
I might as well adopt it
Don't have another option
Put my soul up for auction
Slowly losing my conscious
I'm always being cautious
Fill myself with the toxins
Andd now I'm feeling nauseous
Andd now I'm feeling nauseous
Andd now I'm feeling nauseous

My eyes are leaking faucets
Sick of this shit, exhausted
I just keep taking losses
My head is so thoughtless
I'm losing it, I promise
I'm sipping booze
Sipping booze with no caution
Please excuse, all my blues
I just wanna sleep, the snooze
This blood down my wrist, the ooze
I choose to refuse to be misused
I will not be abused, don't confuse
My enthuse as an excuse to use me
Because I'm so loopy off this lucy
That I might show you the true me
If you hate me that much just shoot me
But I won't let you fool me, you goofy
Fuck it all, Just shoot me

I'll always be reborn, that's why I mourn
I'll never reform to the accord, no uniform
My life is strucken just like a thunderstorm
This is my final form, I've been transformed
I'm as old as a fucking dinosaur, my heart is sore
My heart is tore, I'm walking out the fucking door
Leave me on the floor, ignore me
You can't afford to support me
There's no reward to adore me
No reward to adore me anymore
No reward to adore me
Anymore