Melancholy Oxidase

Let me dissipate, into violent distortion
The pacifying taste of blood and the sulfur
With pale knuckles, comes a skyline
Bruise stutter in forms, of bleak and desperate hues

Grit teeth, to display dissatisfaction
I felt your spirit shift it showed me I am at fault
A failure by choice, I am what I manifest
Spinning lead, when will it disperse in my head?

Force it's course to a state of reason
Force it's course, in which I cease to be
Say if you met me now? What could I even say?
Rewired and rearranged, chemical disarray

Click, click, click, click, click, boom

Say if I met you now? What could you even say?
Selfless now selfish with a different face
How's all this? Your "predetermined fate"?
Let me dissipate, let me dissipate

I now know why we are like this, fallen in love with our vices
I've forcefully dehisced the wound to remind me what not to do
I cannot fall for this
I cannot fall for the vice and I cannot fall for you

Evade the feeling I was never good enough
But that's only changing the fact to fiction
Evade the feeling I was never good enough
But that's only lying by omission

I met with death in a bathroom stall
Dripping with blood like kerosene doused
The shattered lens of intoxication
Brought on by the bitter taste of you

How could you ever love me, I'm still fucking nothing
How could you ever love me, I'm still fucking nothing