Golden Scars

Done trying to fight all these battles I've been in
Keep crossing my heart this is just the beginning
I'm losing my mind and I'm stuck with a feeling
I've buried it deep but somehow it keeps breathing
I've taken in thoughts and Ive taken down ceilings
This mountain Ive conquered but still I keep grinning
No wonder these monsters latch on and keep sticking right to me i feel like nobody believes in
I told you I'd do it and I'm half way there
Killing my hope all I do's compare
Got a couple cents if you need to change
Sitting by the corner just to sit in pain
Anybody out there?
No one remains, you can tell by the silence there's no one to blame
I don't need a nightmare to see the rain cause once I wake up do it all again

So many lessons and so many trials this version of me is just so in denial
Got stuck with the voices they stay in my head, but I'll be alone while I sleep in my bed
Don't have motivation as much as before, I'm lacking the fuel and I'm not in the zone
He told me he loved me but how do I know?
No asking questions just keep it real low
Keep getting art till your cover is blown, I wish I could know where this passion will go
Quit wasting time, cause your times almost out
Sometimes I sit and just scream and I shout
No more debating this shit's for the taken I know what I want and I know I can make it
Cause it's only me who believes I can chase it
Yeah It's only me who believes I can face it

I thought that I could leave, so that's just what I did
I opened up the doors and took it all in
They told me I could change, so I went out and tried
But once I looked back, there was nothing inside