Ocean Song

I'm claustrophobic
Scared to keep you close
You say you notice when it rains I'm never home
I chased rainbows for a while
Till it took my smile
And I closed my eyes
Try to make things right
But these things take time
My optimism at a full time low
Running out of hope and gas
Cracking jokes but I never laugh
Wish I could get the good times back
Kicking back while I kick myself
Remember days when all I wanted was to kill myself?
Sheesh
Up late counting sheep
Steep valleys under monster peaks
Peace fading while the beat goes slow
Pray, father don't let me overdose
Need some help 'fore I lose my soul
Jesus take away the pain or take control
Anxiety keeping me drifting
I pray for forgiveness
I hope to set the record straight
Love myself despite my own self-hate
Hope I'll be okay

After all these violent thoughts
All these hours, all these outbursts
I turn the lights off
Try to focus on this ocean
Feel the steady rock
Try to get away from this dangerous head space I'm in

I push you away but I want you to stay
I'm so confused I can't give you the blame
You do more than enough
To show me that I'm loved
But it scares me to think that our minds never stay the same
Cuz one day I'm up
One week I'm down
One year you're here
The next, you're not around
I can't rely on feeling good
When I've got all these eyes on my
Inability to process what's depressing me
It's stressing me out
It's weighing me down
So I take to the Sea
Try to figure it out
I get lost in the Sea
Feels like I'm starting to drown

After all these violent thoughts
All these hours, all these outbursts
I turn the lights off
Try to focus on this ocean
Feel the steady Rock
Try to get away from this dangerous head space I'm in



Credits
Writer(s): Cory Goodhope
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