Not Excited

I'm not excited, but should I be
Seems I reached the peak but I need a little more to be truly free
I know I love you and you love the sea
I'm not sure if this life is the way life is supposed to be

Yeah, ayee
We used to link after bio, now she got a child
Asking people "PayPal me", with the link in the bio
Things getting pretty wild, reality set it
Got homies dead, in the pen, pregnant, some independent
And meanwhile I fake smiles so they can tip me these
Dead presidents I work so hard to collect (Have a good day sir)
But no regrets, I know I'm blessed even though I'm stressed
It's evident my job ain't heaven sent but I help my parents pay rent
Every now and then I sit and think bout the world that we live
Cleverly designed to keep mankind in sin
Man I'm tryna commit some crimes, tired of honest living
This mediocre conformity too boring to me
But often find myself trapped in the same category
I wasn't born insane, I was made this way
Molded by the twisted life I'm living every day
And lord know, I don't wanna rage
But I'm trapped in my mind and I can't escape
Feel like the man on the moon, I'm a solo dolo
Me myself and I are my only true bros
I'm so sociable when I am alone
Couldn't tell you what's wrong, couldn't tell you what's left
I wish I could quit fo' I lose my respect
What? Huh? Yeah
I'll tell you after
Feeling like a catfish
Poet disguised as a rapper, and uh...

I'm not excited, but should I be
Seems I reached the peak but I need a little more to be truly free
I know I love you and you love the sea
I'm not sure if this life is the way life is supposed to be

Yeah, ayee
I wanna flip a couple bricks, but my conscience won't let me
I'm plugged with my rellie making a killing, living like celebrity
Dreams of racing Lamborghinis funded by me
Coming up on your aunty gouda provoloni
Getting fettuccini
I mean these things I be thinking but never be meaning
Just day dreaming of living life like Tony Montini
Sipping margaritis with bad bikinis
Upgrade Aquafina to the Fiji
They be like no way, his third vacay up in Fiji

Haha... yeah
On the lowkey though, got a brodie flipping kilos
Tried talkin me in as I was talking him out
Selling white girl to the white girl was getting him clout
I often fantasize about selling white
They earning stripes, I got a 9-5
They catching bodies, I'm here saving lives, yeah
I'm really out here saving
As a teen I was tight and just wanted a Raven
If I'm on, we all on so I know that we made it
My homies roll deep, yeah we look like a nation
Pull up to yo hood, reverse gentrification
San Francisco money dancing, like a disco they blinging
Calabasas getting casas, what I'm tryna see
Getting money lowkey, or profiting on TV
Not like when I saw my dude the news cuz all the people he juiced
Wanted for his arrest
Hitting fools with a piece upside their head
Now he in a county blue pen (free Roc)
Went to the mall and robbed a JCPen
Catch us they wasn't, but caught your cousin running
Didn't stop there, home invasion
Now my wodie ain't here (free Der)
Home invasion was persuasive

That's not what I preach, that's not what I do
No stick up for loot like some in my crew
Now in the pen, blowing my phone up like Samsung
Asking for ends, came through even though I barely had none
I make money, money don't make me
I hate money, but hustle addicting
Not addicted to work, but might OD on this OT

More than 40 hours a week so I deserve this 40
Right?
40oz to head but the problems still there
I won't do nothing wrong
Ain't tryna disappoint mom
So I got this new job
But uhh...

I'm not excited, but should I be
Seems I reached the peak but I need a little more to be truly free
I know I love you and you love the sea
I'm not sure if this life is the way life is supposed to be