Closer

Lately, I've been afraid of changin'
I'm having some trouble facin'
The fact that I'm growing older
Been totaling up the days
And it's probably just a phase
But it's terrifying
I swear the time is tearing by
I'm wary, I'm falling off of the pace
And I'll never be quite as young
As I am at this very moment
Scary to think that I could be
Buried before I know it
Yo, what happened to my future
So bright and full of promise?
Or my youth, or all the dreams
That I no longer acknowledge
There are so many things
I have yet to accomplish
Thought I'd be done by thirty-one
Long as I'm being honest
But I've got a long list of
Fumbles and trips
Stumbles and slips
Up in the mirror, wondering
Who the fuck is this?
That can't be my reflection
I'm only like twenty-six
Five years passed in a flash
Just a couple of ticks
And there's no forever young
'Cause it doesn't fucking exist
I'm gonna die
Better live while there's time
'Cause this is it

I'm getting higher and higher, closer to my dreams
And my desire is higher, closer than you think
I'm getting higher and higher, closer to my dreams
And my desire is higher, closer than you think

As I sit and I drift
As my eyes flick to the sky
Reminisce on the prime of my life was twenty-five
Right before my uncle died
And my nigga chose suicide
I was half-assin' as time passes
Chasin' a high
What if I put the time in my talent as I did socially?
When I say I'll make it
It wouldn't be said with hopefully
Learnin' from mistakes
As I wake up and say a prayer
For my dreams
Told my family my music will take us there
But hard work ain't workin'
And, personally, it ain't fair
How they overlooked our circle
As if our album was square
But God has a plan
And I'm hopin' it's for my jams
That they reach the pinnacle they supposed to
And triple fans
For the ones that said I couldn't
And treated my art as spam
Get the four fingers down
With the middle one left to stand
For the ones that said I couldn't
And treated my art as spam
Get the four fingers down
With the middle one left to stand

I'm getting higher and higher, closer to my dreams
And my desire is higher, closer than you think
I'm getting higher and higher, closer to my dreams
And my desire is higher, closer than you think

Rewind time a bit, you will find a kid
Naive to other people's intentions
I was blind as shit, like
Rockin' for free, doing an album overseas
Going to Tahiti a second time
To split two G's
Shit, I coulda went back by myself
But I thought about my crew
And I figured I'd spread the wealth
With no help from an agent or a manager
Just a couple of Frenchmen
Willing to take a chance on some amateurs
To be honest, my layoff seems like an eternity
Finally finding my hunger
It seems the scene has yearned for me
But it's still hurtin' me
This dead-end job is workin' me
Towards insanity
Family comes first, so fuck my sanity
My bennies suck, my pay is wack
And fuck a 401k
I need cheese to physically stack
'Cause this economy's fucked
Like streaking in sweater weather
I'm on my hands and knees
Praying things will get better

I'm getting higher and higher, closer to my dreams
And my desire is higher, closer than you think
I'm getting higher and higher, closer to my dreams
And my desire is higher, closer than you think

And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer