My Garden

It's more so that I hate the way that I am
Sensitive fuck, how the weight of a hand
Could prevent me from wanting to wade through the sands
Quick to envelope as it understands
That even when close she would slip through my hands
Love how this shit never goes as we planned
There be an ocean of fears where I lay
But my body rests under pillars of sand
Anxiety tells me that we need more love
The depression inside said that he needs more cups
We just need blades and the warmth of a tub
I overthink as my body grows numb
I start to sleep, water turns to rose buds
This is my Garden of Eden
Show me the fruit and I swear I won't eat it

I start to sleep, water turns to rose buds
This is my Garden of Eden
Show me the fruit and I swear I won't eat it
For I am the one true deceiver
I went through hell trying to combat my demons
Came back with horns like," Whose side was defeated?"
Bury me now under six feet of cement
My life is pointless, I can't find a reason to leave
My Garden of Eden
Show me the fruit and I swear I won't eat it
For I am the one true deceiver
I went through hell trying to combat my demons
Came back with horns like," Whose side was defeated?"
Bury me now with the roots of my evil

Ice in a glass that's half empty
I feel like I'm melting
They treat me like coal, put me under this pressure
Cause falling in love was my antidepressant
Now falling in love is what roots my depression
Been there and done that
I love how she falls back
Don't know why I still go through all that
Lightbulb, I should put a hole through my ball cap
Hype songs, hold me for a moment then I fall flat
Life is a bitch, don't pick up and won't call back
Watch as I trip and pray nobody saw that
Blood leaves my lips but he can't put his jaw back
Blade on my hip but this fight don't involve that
But poorly committed I leave my rendition of loyalty
Praying that we're more than friends
But until then

I'll overthink, water turns to rose buds
This is my Garden of Eden
Show me the fruit and I swear I won't eat it
For I am the one true deceiver
I went through hell trying to combat my demons
Came back with horns like," Whose side was defeated?"
Bury me now under six feet of cement
My life is pointless, I can't find a reason to leave
My Garden of Eden
Show me the fruit and I swear I won't eat it
For I am the one true deceiver
Came back with horns like," Whose side was defeated?"
Bury me now with the roots of my evil