When Ur Older

Nah you don't understand this now but you will when you're older
Wish I could be there to watch you grow up
I hope you don't hold my absence against me
Just know I think about you and your mama
Like every moment, been missin home all alone
In this cell I'm going thru hell
Life ain't go the way that I wanted
Your granny would always warn me but I'd still do what I wanted
I hope that you're nothing like me don't be out here Chasing hoes
Pay attention in all your classes, you smoke it better be strong...
And watch the ns you close with
I hope that your fortunate enough as me to grow up with ns
Thats gone support ya, that extra push is important
But somewhere down the line i fucked up and lost my focus
Hope you learn to think shit over...
My only son, my lil soldier, the product of me falling in love wit someone
I know ya mama love me but shit she only getting older
So if some other n step and do like I was spose to, hol up (balls up paper)

I wonder do you smile when you Think about me
Sometimes I cry when I think about it
Won't be roun for a minute, prolly
Just make sure that I stay alive in ya spirit shawty
And just the thought of you keeps me going, can't be without ya
From me to you know it hurts but you'll have to be without me
Just for a moment, just think of me when you're lonely
Just hold it down til I'm home
Yea You'll understand when you're older yea yea

Sometimes it's hard to put exactly how I feel into words
The jury labeled me monster
Say I got what I deserved
Nah I ain't perfect at all
Amongst my flaws are mistakes I made As a person
If I could hit the reverse
And go back in time know for certain
The outcome would've been different
Cuz none of that shit was worth it
Like missing your birth had hurt me in ways i can't even surface like...
They gave me 30 like... you gone be 30
Too young to know what's occurring
They turned on me at worse and it's crazy
It all started in "Payne"
That was the hood where I had grew up
With Tevin, binky and Adri
I used To cook up them bangers
I used to think I'd be famous
Don't want your first impression of me
To be Some guy in a cage... guess what I'm tryna say is... ehh (Balls up paper)

I wonder do you smile when you Think about me
Sometimes I cry when I think about it
Won't be roun for a min, prolly
Just make sure that I stay alive in ya spirit shawty
And just the thought of you keeps me going, can't be without ya
From me to you know it hurts but you'll have to be without me
Just for a moment, just think of me when you're lonely
Just hold it down til I'm home
Yea You'll understand when you're older

Nah you don't understand this now but you will when you're older
Wish I could be there to watch you grow up I know you'll be everything
That I hoped and some more
You gotta stay focused on everything thing that you want
Yea it's hard sometimes that's for sure
Know I'd rather be there with you
Hear you laugh at all of my jokes
I would cherish all of the moments
And play you my favorite songs
I would teach you to use your fist
I would show you what's right from wrong
I would show you to be a man
You can't learn that shit on your own
But I love you, I hope you know it
Emotional when I wrote this
I hope that you keep me close til
I see you again im goin thru hell
But'll never show it
Im writing you at my lowest
I hope that you'll understand it when you get a lil older, when ur older

I wonder do you smile when you Think about me
Sometimes I cry when I think about it
Won't be roun for a min, prolly
Just make sure that I stay alive in ya spirit shawty
And just the thought of you keeps me going, can't be without ya
From me to you know it hurts but you'll have to be without me
Just for a moment, just think of me when you're lonely
Just hold it down til I'm home
Yea You'll understand when you're older yea yea