Confession

So I got a lot of shit on my mental
And I want y'all to understand what I was going through
So here's what I call a piece of the past
And hold on to it
Cuz it's always gonna last

Got a pain in my chest
Heartbreak on my breath
Lotta days I can't stress
For all the days we have left
That we needa be free to leave
Squeeze the beef relieve the grief
Had a kid with an ex
Didn't survive the rest
Of the time he had next
To grow and process
Was it meant to be? Was a little me
What would my life be? Swimming through debris

Sometimes in life you gotta wanna get it right
Don't lie you try too hard to stay anonymous
Alive inside don't ever be afraid to try
You ride or die regardless of your promises
You get one life to live as far as we know
So roll down your sleeves when you're stuck in the cold
When you feel you are divin' in just seize control
Because nothings for free unless you're handing out smoke

When it occurred to me they don't deserve me
Think it's absurd to be moving to better things
Would've preferred to see all of my homies
Earning their worth to be choosing a destiny
Snakes in the grass always tryna get next to me
I've taken my past and seen what it's done for me
Come up in last too much to get mad
I just pick up the pad and put down what all comes to me

No hiatus just a break in the chain saying hi ate us from inside of the brain
Nice guy waiting for the stakes to change No more buying steaks with pocket change
So I'm lining em up and I'm taking my aim
And you're out of luck cause you're on the range
But dying's fucked cause we all the same
Nobody cares to love cause it's all a game

I think I've got a confession to make
I've got a lot of shit on my plate
The thing about progression it's fake
Til you realize what you're doing is ache
Never let your character break
Cuz there's no respawn in this place
After a while there was never a trace
Then you figure out the stencil misplaced

Sick of the ways we live our lives
Simple we say we roll our eyes
The day that we stay we all may rise
No time for a day to play or cry
Take off your shoes one step at a time
The fun's in the second you leapt to your grind
Cashing a check is the best you can find
Swabbing the deck for a reason to climb

We can stop this I promise
All this darkness it's harmless
With a mindset that's flawless
Possibilities are wall-less
It's a process but now it's progress
Keep the excess No regrets
In a hospice You got this
No access just ten breaths

One for adrenaline Two for the medicine
Three for the times you thought you were genuine
Four for the fact you made it through the regimen
Five for the sake of the air you were breathing in
Six for the Benjamins
Seven comparison
Eight for the meal that was real but no better than
Nine for the wine you had signed to the specimen
Ten for the signs that you were never getting air again

Breathless but it's all good All that matters is I'm understood
Not helpless we're all good just crack a smile throw on the hood
Don't jinx it knock on wood don't worry bout what all could
Too curious man what's afoot Don't worry bout what all could

I think I've got a confession to make
I've got a lot of shit on my plate
The thing about progression it's fake
Until you realize what you're doing is ache
Never let your character break
Cuz there's no respawn in this place
After a while there was never a trace
Then you figure out the stencil misplaced