Bury the Hatchet

Endless is pain
I don't want the fame
I just wanna know how it feels to be sane
Got a black hood up to cover all of my shame
Everybody knows my name
But they don't know the struggles of my brain
They don't know the games
That these demons play
I hide it all away
Blank expression on my face
Laying in my bed
Want these memories erased
Everything effaced
I want it washed away
Routine still the same
I've been writing all night
I've been sleeping all day
While all of me decays
Serotonin rushes through my veins
Pity never been the aim
I'll take another fifth to the face
Stuck inside these walls seems to be my only place
I can feel my life start to slowly drift away
As every day the world is moving at a faster pace
I'll vanish in the wind as a calamitous disgrace
It's rooted in my soul
That my blood has run cold
I've burnt another bridge
And I've fucked it up again
The loneliness begins
It's been my only friend
Push everyone away
Until I feel desolation
I'm running out of time
And the air is flowing thin
Reflecting on our lives comes
In our sunken coffin
Take a deep breath
And hold it all in
Leave the hatchet in the dirt
That's where we all end
Counting all these days
Waiting for a slow death
You say it gets better I haven't seen hope yet
Every single one is feeling like my last breath
Watching as the sun sets,
The hollow void is full of regret
It's unfortunate
You walked away from all of this
You left me laying all alone on my death bed
Left me to my demons and the contemplation in my head
Every word you said
Makes me think I'm better off dead
Every thought is treacherous
Inside my subconsciousness
Maybe I'm content with living in my lonely mess
Maybe with these walls closing in is where I'll be safest
Maybe I wont care if you rip the beating heart from my chest
Maybe I couldn't give a fuck less
I'm a fuckin mess
Full of nothing but the worst stress
Depression anxiety and an empty hollow mess
I'm biding my time waiting for the sweet kiss of death
It's rooted in my soul
That my blood has run cold
I've burnt another bridge
And I've fucked it up again
The loneliness begins
It's been my only friend
Push everyone away
Until I feel desolation
I'm running out of time
And the air is flowing thin
Reflecting on our lives comes
In our sunken coffin
Take a deep breath
And hold it all in
Leave the hatchet in the dirt
That's where we all end