Of Mistakes and Regrets

Oh god, what have I done to thee, and the place that I call home
Oh god, what have I done to thee, and the place that I call home

I didn't ever give it a second thought, thought that I was lost, it's true
Didn't think that we could fix our problems, didn't see any options, but now I do
Found out that I was dying, the doc ain't lying to me, but I ain't free, no I'm alone
It wasn't me that made those choices, it was the voices, and now they're gone

You were my only place of solace, my love and emotions, I don't know what do
I was sick, can't I get an annulment, of all the hurtful things I said to you
When I wake up in the morning, I'm reminded of all my sins
Wish that I had known I was broken, then I could've fixed it, instead of hurtin' you

And all I can think of now, is of my mistakes and regrets, of the things I shouldn't've said
And now I know who I am, and it's not who I've been, not who I was to you

I had a chance to tell you that I was wrong, but I didn't follow along, I fucked it all
Scared you, didn't respect your position, broken hearted incisions, made by my hands
Now I've gone and pushed you all the way, don't think we'll be friend someday, but I'm the one to blame
Wish it hadn't been up to me, but now there's nothing for me to see, hangin' off of the shed