Thirsty

I came to under a red moon
Thirsty for water
My eyes were like shovels in the soil of the sky
Digging in to the night to find solace
Burying emptiness

I was heart-broken
Vomiting memories
Because I'd promised her everything
Then I did what I could not to recognize anything

So, here I was. Marching the town
Like a priest in my rapture
Muttering spells

So desperate for tenderness
So raw from the grating of senses the way, the day
Drinks
Every drop of my strength, it's relentless

I was digging out pence for a length of bad whisky
Me and my friends
Or at least
The others who slumped at the bar without peace
They embraced me as kindred
But something is missing

So, I was sat there at the bar with my
Forehead on my wrist
Thinking I had given all I had in me to give
When I saw her, cross the floor like a
Firework exploding in slow motion
She touched me on the shoulder and I started
To live

But I wasn't ready yet

I wanted suckerpunch and numbness
The chase and the conquest of dating by numbers
The safety of keeping my distance and
Feeding my hungers

She spoke of a truth that I could not confront
And she offered a peace
That my war didn't want

Because I liked being fangs and
Destruction
Suction and froth and dis-function

I was dreaming
Talking too much with my
Friends in the evenings
I laughed
Very loud as if I was extremely happy
You should have seen me

Now I knew she sensed a glory
I could feel it in the way that I was standing
Two feet taller like I'd never been afraid

I didn't want her to know I wasn't everything she saw in me
We walked each other
Home and
Didn't kiss

We walked each other home

And