...unfamiliar

I was wide awake when you left
Count down the hours 'til I could tuck tail, I fled
Down the stairs to my car, where I spent far too long
Motionless and wondering where life went so wrong
Not what I expected
Fighting for love that we long knew was truly dead

I cried the whole drive home
Never felt so alone

Floating and floating and floating and floating and I'd been
For days, stood still, floating around in denial
The "can't do this anymore" stayed with me for a while
And I'd been
Left gasping for air that I never thought I needed
The winter chill felt so familiar
I didn't need to see beyond
I think I'd known it all along

One day, I'll forgive myself
With all these flaws or otherwise
Soon, no doubt
One day, one day
And I'll forgive myself
Until the cold crept in just like you do

So much room to grow
Re-evaluating what I'd done
Is all I need to overcome
...a death

I'll take time to find out
If all the pain was worth it
My chance to be better
And could it last forever?
The winter chill felt so familiar
And I didn't need to see beyond
I'd known it all along