Faith in Myself

I've been running for my goals since so long
That I almost forget I'm a man not a robot
I've been reading writing reciting recording
Making songs from the heart
And I know that I won't stop
I don't have an option I'll do an auction
I'll sell myself if I have to
It wont be much but less is more
When your pockets empty I'll thank you
Its all good till I make some dimes
So I can invest in the dream which
I vow to make real for once see the fog clear for once
See the glow in the eyes of my dear ones
See them feel that pride
Be their near for once be a dear
For once with no fear for once
Be a peer for once who will move
In the front from the rear for once
Be the brother my sisters need for once
Be the son my parents need for once
Be the one that my girl would love
For once be the one my family deserves for once
My whole life I've been fighting
With demons who follow me wherever I go
I don't like to fight but once I'm in one
I don't fear for my life i just go with the flow
I ain't Kronik cuz I'm bad
I'm Kronik cuz once I really have to
I don't think of what you'll think of me
I don't care if I kill if I wish to
And I wont regret I wont stop at nothing
Once in my zone you're dead not running
Once I'm pissed I'm death not funny
You'll pee your pants when you see me coming

I got faith in myself I believe in me
I believe my songs will hit you hard
One day you all gonna preach what I say
With these words that I write straight from my heart
One day I'll be a million miles away
From the songs that I make to reach you
I'm sharing all that I learn in life
My purpose is never to teach you

I'll be the whackest in your playlist
If I make it so you play me
More than the hardest that you think
You got in there in your god d*mn phone
Cuz then you'll share my songs with your people
Asking them to hear me out
Cuz right now with all this sensible sh*t
I don't get no plays none cares about
I've grown on Em no I'm not a stan
But I'm more than a fan of slim shady
You wont even know my favorite eminem song
I'm at a much higher level I'm grim shady
I've been living in the shade for too long
My soul represents an eminent shadow
Many men are shallow I take'em g's from the club
Put'em down in the gallows
These gallows fear me I bow to god
But I don't fear him cuz that ain't me
I'ma believer a heathen a criminal mind
With a rage so strong which prepare me
So if you think to cross me I'll cross you out
From the map of the life you're living
It's better you take your god d*mn balls
'Fore I get my axe for killing
This song I wrote with Yela(wolf) in my mind
Struggle(jennings) in my heart Jelly(roll) on my sleeve
It's time I drown in holy water and get that
Sink in the belly of the beast
I aint gonna quit now I'd rather sit down
Write another verse for my bible
I might not be known yet but I'm damn sure
I'm a living proof of a veteran survivor

I got faith in myself I believe in me
I believe my songs will hit you hard
One day you all gonna preach what I say
With these words that I write straight from my heart
One day I'll be a million miles away
From the songs that I make to reach you
I'm sharing all that I learn in life
My purpose is never to teach you

I'm a dark soul I'm dark man
I'ma dark mind with a dark plan
My dark plan is way too dark
Apocalypse doesn't stand a chance
My dark ways bring dark days
Make dark nights even darker
These dark days embark ways
Like pathways to arkham
I'm not depressed I'm pissed off
I'm not sad at all I'll kick ya'll
If you make me snap you better run away
Cuz if I catch you I'ma beat ya'll
Spent half my life making songs from the heart
It's easier to quit now
But I aint a quitter I'ma work my a$$ off
To get to the place I dream of
To understand my content
You gotta have a level of conscience
Never made songs for you to dance
For me that all is non sense
Never made songs so a 12 year old thinks
Life is so damn pretty
I write what is real to me
I don't speak no lies that's why I'm shitty
I got no regrets I won't request
You to believe in what I say
Believe or not the truth remains
As a fact which you can not escape
My soul survived a thousand hells
And I'm standing here with my head high
I don't bow before my demons
I feed them hellfire so they stand right