In My Head

I'm a mess
Every night I'm drinking in a bar to wallow in my pity
It's pathetic
A better man would've been over you by now
Is that your face
No maybe that's the whiskey playing tricks on me
It's the worst form of self cruelty
But that's how I live

And some days
I let it get all into my head
The last time I smiled, I cant remember when
But I still move on
And some days
I wish that you were still here in my bed to whisper sweet nothings and tussle my hair
But you're long gone

12pm
Now I've lost half the day to a late night
That's true
I found a funny meme that I would have sent to you
When everybody asks me how I'm doing
I tell them fine
But I'm bummed that you are out of my life

Some days
I let it get all into my head
The last time I smiled, I cant remember when
But I still move on
And some days
I wish that you were still here in my bed to whisper sweet nothings and tussle my hair
But you're long gone

I log on to Instagram and check to see if you're doing okay
I know I sound depraved
I just want this to be worth it
Please tell me that my heart aching is worth it
If not, what the hell are you putting me through

Cause some days
I let it get all into my head
The last time I smiled, I cant remember when
But I still move on
And some days
I wish that you were still here in my bed to whisper sweet nothings and tussle my hair
But you're long gone

That's right
You're in my head

That's right
You're in my head