I Deny

Even when you don't know what you want
Some part of you drives you on and on
It's primitive and it's grown
Way past the limits that I've shown

You tease and you touch and you look and you show and I know,
That you're playing with my feelings like a dog with a bone

I plan and I plot on the phone
Play games and schemes of my own
Won't let you get away without a moan
I'll lie to myself even if it's wrong

You tease and you touch and you look and you show and I know,
That you enjoy sitting on your throne

I lie to myself day and night,
Believe what I want to believe:
"It's worth a fight".
I see what I want you to see,
I deny:
"It can't just be about your body", though it might.
That would make me like everybody so I deny.

Let go of the shackles that I hold
Become the man that I've always been told
I shouldn't be, what will they see, what will they think of me?
Can I be my beacon of authenticity?
I want to admit what I want and what I want is exactly what you want
If only I could let go of the misconception
Misdirections
All the games and the rules of this world
Through the honesty, I hope we'll see
The desire, innate to every human being that I know
The heart's fire that I oft hide
Scared of showing you my dark side
The denial that I fight, drives me to the ground
It burns inside where I no longer see the light

I lie to myself day and night,
Believe what I want to believe:
"It's worth a fight".
I see what I want you to see,
I deny:
"It can't just be about your body", though it might.
That would make me like everybody so I deny.

I am breaking you free while you're
shaking to me, begging please don't let me go
I am letting you see that the man
that I'll be is no less than I was before

I am breaking you free while you're
shaking to me, begging please don't let me go
I am letting you see that the man
that I'll be is no less than I was before

I am breaking you free while you're
shaking to me, begging please don't let me go
I am letting you see that the man
that I'll be is no less than I was before

(No, no, don't let me go)

I am breaking you free while you're
shaking to me, begging please don't let me go
I am letting you see that the man
that I'll be is no less than I was before

(No, no, don't let me go)

I lie to myself day and night,
Believe what I want to believe:
"It's worth a fight".
I see what I want you to see,
I deny:
"It can't just be about your body", though it might.
That would make me like everybody so I deny.