Attachment

Words caught between mind and mouth
Pressing hard against my throat
If only I knew what they were
I'm the only one who'd know

It feels like I'm clawing
But can't get anything to budge
I'm gasping for the distant air
Breathing in the mounds of blood

My eyes can't help but burn
Looking back at all the months
You were never really there
But your absence hurts so much

I tend to shut the open doors
I sometimes bite the hand that feeds
But the thunderstorms I bring
Are just a picture of my needs

And he's not there when I need him
But he would know what to do
He knows all the ins and outs of me
And that's the thing I can't lose

I try to think of other things
But it keeps tugging at my sleeve
It's so hard to let him go
When he's all that I can breathe

Until he's happy with himself
I will never be enough
I can't tell if I need him
Or just anybody's love

I'm probably making this more painful
I'd treat the devil like an angel
You could put me through any kind of hell
I'll always be faithful

Can't wipe the memories away
It's me that I'd erase
When I'm looking in the mirror
I'm looking at his face