Where I Belong

Why should I have to beg for what is rightfully mine?
While you sit back and wait for a comet to pass you by
And you hold out your hands,
in hopes that a future will fall right out of the sky
But you will only find dread,
as months turn to years fading out into hindsight

Now I watch as the world unwinds
And I bathe in the moonlight
Where do I go from here?
A roadmap of my passing prime
Full of holes, it erodes, with my soul, and I'm bleeding

I've been told that it's all just prologue
The afterlife is waiting for me
But how do you know?
When my fate has been on hold for so long
I grow old, the window starts to close, and I can't...

Breathe, breathe in and fulfill your purpose
Reduce the trees to a pile of leaves
Burn them all to ash 'til you're choking on the answer
Though you may never be...

Free, free from the disease that ails us
Beyond the plague of uncertainty, waits the essence of my new reality

With each and every trial, I learned how to be strong
Endow my spirit with the strength to carry on

I retrace all my footprints back to when I was young
Until I find the message I've kept buried for so long
I want it all at once or, I want it not at all
A truth that leads me to the place where I belong

Knowledge of death brings us life
Aging like a fine wine
Until the well has run dry
Marking the passage of time
Need for expression comes in succession

I'm here to take what is mine
Nothing to hold me back if I don't feel alive
And now the planets align
Drive all my focus into this moment

Something's in the water
Just like any monster, it grows, and it grows tenfold
The frozen ocean is brought to a boil

Praying at the altar
Just doesn't compare to getting your own hands dirty
Reality is a tangible thing

I retrace all my footprints back to when I was young
Until I find the message I've kept buried for so long
I want it all at once or, I want it not at all
A truth that leads me to the place where I belong

This is where I belong

And in my fever dream
Nothing is as it seems
So ever-carefully I will roam
Choices I never made
Outcomes that I can't change
Let go of shame, and carry on

I still carry the spark
It guides me through the dark
So in the frigid pain, I will roam

With burdens in my arms
I'm dreaming of a star
Feels like a fantasy
I'm not asleep