A Fusion of Unusual Things

I see, how this works
Endlessly twisting, turning me
To something worse
You see
I'd fall into something deep
There's no draught through the walls for me to breath
You keep me from falling deep

But it's facing me now I can't keep my eyes off it
Reversing but immersing myself in this topic
Can't help but fall back when I want to speak of it
On to another step just to fall back where I started
I'll just follow the dove if I'm honest
Anchored to the vision, not the profit
Hold back a bit just to stay modest
I try to swallow but it is just ironic

I feel a fusion of unusual things
Exclusion from what I used to bring
But you keep me from sinking in

Oh don't you see me
When I'm tip-toeing out of sight
Knowing full well that you don't know me
Missing the company to a degree but I shouldn't feel lonely
Attached too quick
High hopes revoked I felt the most

Still, it's facing me now I can't keep my eyes off it
Reversing but immersing myself in this topic
Can't help but fall back when I want to speak of it
On to another step just to fall back where I started
I'll just follow the dove if I'm honest
Anchored to the vision, not the profit
Hold back a bit just to stay modest
I try to swallow but it is just ironic

Oh I know
I think too much which brings me down
One spark that I'll be down without
Just because I hate the thought of it
Oh and I use the things that make the sounds
Combined with those who all surround me
To put my pen to paper and let me begin
It's just a tendency, need to let things be
I can't help but tend to the things that I should leave

I know it's not hard but some days I just feel too far from my lane
I'm still driving but writing it might be too far away
In need of a better mask, to suffice for the future days
Just so I can fuse these two feelings and remain hidden away