Nightmare

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
And I realize

I've tasted blood and it is sweet
I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
I've trusted lies and trusted men
Broke down and put myself back together again
Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
Collected the pieces then picked out a dagger
I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers
And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors

Come on, little lady, give us a smile
No, I ain't got nothin' to smile about
I've got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
A moment to say I don't owe you a goddamn thing

I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night

No, I won't smile, but I'll show you my teeth
And I'ma let you speak, if you just let me breathe
I've been polite, but won't be caught dead
Lettin' a man tell me what I should do in my bed
Keep my exes in check in my basement
'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
I could play nice or I could be a bully
I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be

Come on, little lady, give us a smile
No, I ain't got nothin' to smile about
I've got no one to smile for, I've waited a while for
A moment to say I don't owe you a goddamn thing

I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'd rather be a real nightmare, than die unaware, yeah
Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers