Long Nights

This world is infected
We all have problems in life
Look to your conscience for a place to survive
The clock, it ticks no matter what
So quit the fussin' and cryin'
Just take it
Don't lose your face within the space they've provided
There ain't no savior that's gon' save you tonight
We can't escape from consequences
Make a claim at the top to get knocked right back to the bottom
It's kind of hard to keep your posture when you've cracked the model
But still, I choose to keep on pushing the mileage until it's done
And at the finish with my brothers behind me
And when I'm dead I hope you knew I did what I could for my people
The only reason I'm still kicking and breathing
Is 'cause my friends, they chose to stick on by my side
And that I won't forget
And so I swing upon the jaw of whom you call the Devil
The lyrics fallin' from my brain they represent what's within
I can't explain it frankly, but shit has been gettin' crazy
Some days it seems the Earth ain't turnin' my way
But I'll be damned
If I'm gon' let that kill my will to remain with a meaning

Why is life so full of stress?
Everyday is another test
Even when I try my best
It all just ends up one big mess
Reinventing 'till I feel copacetic
With the deal that I've made with myself
I feel I'm losing what is real
Disconnected
I've been injected with the burdened blood
Ever since I can remember I've resisted feelin' love
Can't hold nothing close to me 'cause it might just slip away
When the memories appear, they stick you like a sharpened blade
Cuttin' close digging deep, I don't feel the need to eat
Even when I go to sleep my mind is playin' games with me
I can't focus when my brain is choking
Poisoned by the fear
I ain't scared of what's to come, I'm only nervous what is here
Can I be guided to the light?
Or will this just end up being one more long night?
Hold my breath and say goodbye
Greet the reaper with a shake and tell him I'll be on my way
And just as I walk in the gates I catch my breath and reawake