Never Should've Bothered

It was the age of self diagnosis
We were so liberal with our doses
Self important and indignant
Crashing cars our dads taught us to drive in

In the time between degrees and employment
We were in no hurry for its procurement
Were told "to be part of something"
More than this job I hate
More than this debt that won't go away

And so I made myself scum
To make myself someone
Who's experienced every failing
And could then explain oblivion

And it's been gnawing at my brain

If you knew, what I knew when it started
It never would have started
If you knew, that you never should've bothered
You never would've bothered

In this world that's constantly changing
If you're not improving, you're fading fast
That's all I wanted to do
Then I met you

So if you think you're too drunk to call me
I'm probably too drunk to fall asleep
And when you're in that state
Do you hate me? Do you blame me?

Cause it's been gnawing at my brain

If you knew, what I knew when it started
It never would have started
If you knew, that you never should've bothered
You never would've bothered

Now I'm switching to light beer
To make my twelve beer affairs
A slightly smaller ordeal
Do you hate me? Do you blame me?

Cause it's been gnawing at my brain

If you knew, what I knew when it started
It never would have started
If you knew, that you never should've bothered
You never would've bothered