Wallow

I know my worth is less than time itself
If this is worth it only time will tell
One second at a time
Every hour after the next I'll never get to relive
Face to face with the grim with no final prayers
The voice in the back of my idle mind failed to talk me off of this ledge
Vacating my brain until nothing remains but the secrets Ive kept along the way to the grave.
Im grieving and numb in the face
I can't feel my own tears
Miracles in vain
Be how it may, Ill just wallow in shame
Reacquaint my body with the dirt and soil beneath my feet
Sentance my soul to eternal wandering
Rest In Purgatory
Im sick and tires of being sick and tired
Inebriation of mind is my luxurious comfort
I cannot help but feel so alone
I try and count on myself to be my own best company while wallowing in my bitter misery
Every endeavour to step out of the box Another useless attempt
Self loathing over and over again
Another day another fucking disappointment
One time I wish that I could avoid it
Self pity always gets me set straight belly up in the bullshit that keeps me awake
Born broken to me it seems fair
Lost in the dark of a thousand yard stare
Face to face with the grim with no final fucking prayers
Wallowing
Chains nailed to my feet
Just to pull me through the day
Wake up feeling weak
Burdens i can't shake away
A shot of happiness right between the eyes
I wish i could say that these thoughts were a lie
Turn it off shut me down before i risk a life
But don't worry i'll try to stay out of your sigh