Euthanasia: Redux

Spite-ridden and I'm losing composure
My blood's thinning as I'm searching for closure
I've had this dream before you're walking out the door and I
Can't move my legs
So here we go again it's 4am the hour that drags out
The feeling I can't forget
The heavy hands of the clock added to the weight of
The epitaph

They say that time heals all but now it's killing
Everything And now I'm choking on the words that I never got to
Say so I'll just sit here as I spit up my lungs this one's for
You and it doesn't roll off the tongue
I remember you said we'd pull through this together
But you're not fucking here

Longer than the night
Colder than the dark
In the black like a ghost you leave your mark

I'll never see you again
It's a story that I don't want to tell
And all that's left is the loneliness
In the empty space you left
And your footsteps to follow

I dropped the dirt that made you one with the earth
Fading myself just to hide how much it hurt

I dropped the dirt that made you one with the earth
Fading myself just to hide how much it hurt
Blank walls filling in the voids when every thought is coming in like white noise
Suffer in silence like mice among the lions
The pain and confusion is tempting me with violence
It feels like something's always missing that's just the case of another mans prison

I'll be there with you until the end
I'll never watch another friend drown again