PTSD (Freestyle)

The last time I heard from you was on my 21st birthday
And I swear to God your favorite thing to do was hurt me
That's why you started smiling when we crashed my car
Your denim eyes would light up when we went too far
Swore I'd stop loving you after I counted the stars but
I turned impatient when it got too hard
Now, I don't know where the hell this ends
And I don't know where the fuck you've been
But, I know you ripped all the wallpaper off of my heart
So, I don't know how we could ever restart
Cause every time I thought I knew who you were
You shed your skin
And I guess I should've realized
You were poisonous
But I'd still open my mouth and let you spit your venom in
Cause I've never felt more alive
Than freezing to death on your twin-sized bed
And I've tried everything to get you out of my head
And I've prayed to everyone to bring you back from the dead
So we can do it again if you want to
Go back and get drunk on that roof
Maybe this time I'll get drunk too
Maybe this time I won't try to fight you
Or we can sit in your bathroom floor and get high
With Bandlands on a loop
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To travel back in time to you
Can't tell if I love you tell if I hate you
But you've taken a toll on me
And I'm still not rid of all the bruises that you
Couldn't help but go and leave on me
And there's still an outline of you sketched onto my sheets
But I forgive you even if you're not sorry
You hated my music and I hated it when you cheated on me
I still have flashbacks and sometimes I can't sleep
Can't comprehend what the fuck you did to me
But my therapist says it's
PTSD



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Writer(s): Katherine Victoria Powell, Lauren Elizabeth Powell
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