Beyond My Control

How've you been?
Let's play pretend
That we don't know that we both chose to go
Find less decay

I've spent some time
Wondering how I'd end up
If only I found the guts
To make my peace

It's too late to rewrite the story
And I hate to be dilatory
Stuck in my ways

I'll admit I miss
Feeling just like this
When you said you'd always stay
Take me back to when
We were careless kids
Making promises we'd break

If I lied
I'd say I'm fine
That I'm not sorry for anything
You're not worth the baggage you bring
I'm fine
Can't find out what we're made of
Just know it's insidious
It's got me far down

So I'll keep reading the story
And relive all of the memories
To ease the pain

I'll admit I miss
Feeling just like this
When you said you'd always stay
Take me back to when
We were careless kids
Making promises we'd break

You're what I wanted
Despite you dragging me down
I'll try to fight it
But I don't really know how
You're what I wanted
Despite you dragging me down
I'll try to fight it
But I don't really know how

Whoa, whoa
Things changed, but I don't wanna face it
Gave up and now I'm left complacent
Whoa, whoa
My days all end in devastation
I'm a wreck

I'll admit I miss
Feeling just like this
When you said you'd always stay
Take me back to when
We were careless kids
Making promises we'd break

I swear I'm fine
I swear I'm fine
I swear I'm fine