Kerosene

Talking down, they walk around, the problems
Ashes matches, burn the open coffins
Keep me round, i'm dyin adolescent
Kerosene and gruel, the lack of presence
Swallow my words, and I'm biting my tongue
I'm holding my breath, and I fuck up my lungs
Every time that you talk
Feel the toxic, I been boxing serpents
Contradictions, broken promise
Apparitions talking to me
Telling me to keep my head straight
Maybe I can rap for your sake
Maybe I could off another rapper
Maybe he can find some fucking answers
Maybe you can find your own perspective
Throw my words around til they neglect it

Why am I always the blind eye
Fall for all your white lies
Seems like I fall at all the wrong times
And why do I
Think of you all the time
I hate these thoughts
So why am I trying so hard
Not to chase skies
Why do I love you
Why do I love to
Burn these bridges down
Bodies hit the ground
I've been lost and found
Hate theses messes now
Why am I hated
Why do I say shit
Deafened by the sound
When you came around
Innocence unbound
In a sense allowed
For my heart to break
Please, take my soul away
I'll plead to you almost everyday
If you were my one and only babe
If you wanted to see me cry
Just ask, you don't need a reason why
Your presence enough to deceive these eyes
Your deceiving eyes
These distraught times
I'm just as heartbroken with kerosene lungs
Got smoke in my pipes, and it made me give up
And whatever you'd call this, it wouldn't be love
Fuck you for everything, cause I'm not enough
And the memories I have, they're lacking us
And maybe it's because of you still lacking trust
Bring me down to my knees, I'm falling for lust
Fuck you for everything, cause I'm not enough

Gasoline lit, should'a seen it, peep the demon, in ya closet
Skeletons the elephant in rooms it's
Empty hallways, empty beds now
You wanna label me a fucking let down
I wanna know why you claim regrets how
You gonna be a martyr with a record like that
Make me take a break on every text I text I take back
Kerosene in my lungs can't breathe or relax
It's taxing, rattle all my bones and stop asking
Facts, take actions, crashing cause of passion
Oil in my veins you just a fire light me up with a free mind
A letter to myself on every fucking single B side
Wanted to go first to face the wind and leave me behind
I been nice by design, oh
I know you been unfaithful
Let me go please need to take off
Lemme know why you open that door
Who are you who are you who are you
We gon' fight I don't know what to do
Commotion to see the distance
Moving through it moving pistons it don't get any clearer
Would you do it all again I'm feeling less love when I look in the mirror, oh
Why have you been so cold, I feel this shit is old
Please let me have my soul back
I already know that
It's obscene, your words like kerosene